Friday, May 30, 2008

Restless.

Thanks guys for that red hot THING and the Nike. I have had my sight set on that for ages. The Nike, not the red THING but thanks anyway. But why me la? You all have that impression of me is it? T.T
Lol. Never mind. I'll use it. Since it's my favourite colour (:
And you guys lied to me T.T Quite well done though. I didn't expect that surprise. Good liars (:
But really I'm touched. And Andrea, the card's really nice. Hope we can catch up more often. And even though you're not in AC, you're still one of the remaining OG members =X
Deyong, you didn't have to reveal your sexy leg hair to me. It's ok. I know you're sorry for the trauma you put me through. LOL. At least you didn't wear shorts.
NATALIE,
You look damn cute with your orange flower patch! We were looking out for you. Ok, you're smaller than me so I'm entitled to say this - Although you are small, you were somehow very prominent. YAY! (: Good job!

M.I.A Kenny and JiaYi.
At least we took a picture with Kenny. Lol. I know you wanna stand with me la. So bad ask Deyong to move. Haha. Wow. And you actually took out the red hot THING. Daring leh. Make me so embarrassed.
And JiaYi. ): Where were you?! Ah but I spotted you today. (:
Anyway, Deyong, you still owe us ice cream. I won't forget that.

OH TODAY! What a ______ __ day. Seriously dude, hands off. DON'T PUSH IT. I have my limits. You are really lucky I didn't say anything to your face. I can't believe it la. NO ONE does that but YOU!!! I'm gonna stop using it. I can't take it anymore. I try my best ok. If I had a choice now I would choose to never have to communicate with you again. But I can't, I don't have a choice. Can't wait for this year to be over.

The highlight of my day was...SUBWAY. Yeah so you can imagine what it has been for me. Talking to py about how I felt was really good. At least she knows my frustration about that issue I just mentioned above. And more of course- since she's such a good friend to me. And of course how can I forget Kenny. You really know what to say, friend. I know we always talk alot of nonsense - and it's nice- but when it's time to be serious, I really appreciate and value the things that you have to say.

Iqah and I were on the topic of trust. And it really does hit home. I mean...Yeah. Some things are really hard to explain. How can you actually know if you can trust someone? Or rather, are you willing to give that person a shot? You get hurt, the other person gets hurt when the trust is taken for granted. But what if you could've but didn't? That's the million dollar question.
Haha. Getting too philosophical or something. I better stop it.

I massaged my mummy just now. She hasn't come home so early in ages. So I had a shock when someone rushed me out of the toilet again. Yeah. And I found out stuff from her about a particular person. You know, whatever. There's really something wrong with you. You haven't learnt your lesson. And if it's true. Don't you hurt her feelings. Cos you'll be the biggest bastard on this planet.

Ah.
So much beauty in life. Shining on the outside, empty on the inside.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Blackout

Met Andrea to shop. I haven't seen her in awhile. And she's such a nice shopping buddy. She tempted me with the fried mars bars. Walau. Trying to make me fat ar, babe? But the coffee was just nice. Though I bet it's fattening too. CRAPPPPP! Ate so much unhealthy stuff today ARGH!

Mission sorta accomplished. There were no nice dresses. All shapeless bags again. Either that or too sexy and revealing and that's not my style. I always dress super decently. I bet if I wore anything too "out there" my friends will laugh at me. And I can already imagine Kenny giving me funny looks. No no. Cannot. I will feel too exposed anyway.

LOL. Andrea! Your shades very nice leh the design. Haha. The snake totally looks like a snake =X I'll stick with my mini cooper shades. Then we can have a beach date also. Haha.

We were supposed to meet outside Sakae and I thought I was going to be late. Practically I was late. Just that the others were even later. So I dunno why I rushed back for. When I arrived, Zach and Jiawei still playing Pokemon. Nice one. I have 3 game boys to play Pokemon with and I have all the versions. Wanna compare?! Haha. Gotta catch em all!

Everyone was quite psyched to watch Indiana Jones but we heard that we can go watch it for free on Monday cos BP booked the entire theatre? Something like that la. Thinking whether I should go or not. Then, as we were about to buy the tickets to the movie, Cathay blacked out. GREAT! Ok people, let's go Botak Jones to eat. HOORAY! As usual, couldn't finish. I don't wanna eat fries la! So damn unhealthy. ): I'm not on a diet. I'm on a HEALTHY diet. Talked a lot. Said bad stuff about Man U and Cristiano Ronaldo (LOL what a joke). Man U fans don't curse me. Actually, I don't care la. Whatever. Walked back to CWP. Then went home. ARGH. Tired. What a long day.

Can't wait to sleep (:

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Immortalised

[Deyong] says:
that time
[Deyong] says:
i wear ac tshirt
[Deyong] says:
then some funny shorts
[Deyong] says:
everyone look at me
[Deyong] says:
haha
][ ` мαđєĿěŋё ` ][ your failures do not define you. says:
wt...haha
][ ` мαđєĿěŋё ` ][ your failures do not define you. says:
dont wear shorts ar pls
][ ` мαđєĿěŋё ` ][ your failures do not define you. says:
haha
[Deyong] says:
why cannot
[Deyong] says:
my leg hair is
][ ` мαđєĿěŋё ` ][ your failures do not define you. says:
so retarded la
[Deyong] says:
sexy

whoa man... Deyong, if and when you read this, here's letting you know this is the most entertaining thing I've heard all day.

It's Deyong's Sexy Leg Hair Day! Lol.

SIANZ TTM!

Yay! Holiday right? THEN WHY IS IT SO FREAKING BORING.

It only encourages me to sleep a whole lot more. I can sleep 10 hours and take a 2 hours nap in the afternoon. Wow. I really amaze myself.

Yes. TYPICAL ME. I can't do my chinese homework! AH. Somebody save me! I don't understand the stupid passage!!! And the teacher, whoa so smart la. I don't think any of us got the same package so there will be no copying! Oh man...
Did I say anything about my wonderful chinese oral?
I didn't even speak 50 words. Hmm. Should be about 35 words la. Or less. I don't know. I was just relieved it was over. I can't believe I actually stayed back after school to take it. AH! Teacher said my lang du bu cuo, she gave me "ting gao fen". And while she uttered those words, in my mind I was saying, "Well, aren't you gonna be surprised..." Haha. I guess she was. I never spoke to her before. And from my lang du - my extremely awesome lang du- she probably couldn't tell that I suck so badly. LOL. I applaud her for her patience with me. Really, I do. Just as I do with all my other chinese teachers in the past who have never once lost their cool with me. Do you know I was top in chinese before?! HAHA. YES, I WAS. In primary school of course. Favourite student also. And had the best handwriting. And now. No hope. Lol. Joking. Every now and then will have the occasional fluke, suddenly getting the highest mark in something. But oral is never one. Heh...

I can't believe I actually dedicated so much time into talking about chinese. LOL. This is dumb.

I think I'm losing track of the days already. And I'm too lazy to check the calender. Tsk myself. Just got reminded by SEE Jiawei that there's 4p2 class outing to watch Indie tomorrow. :/ Why do I keep forgetting?
Actually can't wait to see some people. Although I don't know who is going. OH OF COURSE Zach is at the top of the list la. LOL. What a joker. But really...What a source of entertainment! HA. He really knows how to cheer people up by using his lame-ness and his very erm...funny sense of humour. Well done man! Hope you can snatch your eyecandy away from the guy without being run over by that "truck"! No no. Don't do that. Haha. As I said, THE ONE is waiting out there for you, waiting to be fished out of the deep blue sea. But don't fall in, since you can't swim that well. Haha. Wah I shouldn't say that about you. I'm no better myself. Firstly, I don't wish to be a fish in the sea because I DON'T LIKE FISH. Secondly, what kinda fish would I be if I can't swim that well. Last but not least, I rather do the fishing. LOL.

I have the sudden urge to climb Bukit Timah Hill. Anyone interested? I've only gone there like once to run up. Almost died. But still... It's nice (: Actually, I don't remember much of it. I only ran up the main path. Which is obviously not as interesting if you do further exploring. But I don't wanna get lost. Haha.

Wanna go my aunty's house to swim and play squash/tennis.
Wanna study.
Wanna watch good flicks.
Wanna sleep?
Wanna buy things that are "necessary".
Don't wanna read another newspaper -.-

Sunday, May 25, 2008

An Wu Ci

I remember py told me some Hong Kong channel had a Chinese name for The Click 5 and her brother said : "At least they didn't call them An Wu Ci." Well. Yes. That would be dumb. Lol.

So sad can't go for their concert. ):

But I know one day I will. There's always something to look forward to. (: Can't wait to meet Kyle and the gang. Kyle is cute and preppy looking. Haha. But a little too tall for me. ): Nah joking. I wouldn't stand a chance even if I wanted one. Lol.

Wah. But whenever they advertise about the concert I get upset. ): CRAPPPPP.

I watched the Ellen Show today. 2 hours of Ellen. And though I've watched them before, WHO CARES?!?!?!?! Watch again (:

I'm gonna start on my homework tomorrow. HONEST. Going to start on my GP and Chinese tomorrow. I was supposed to have a beach date but... Postponed to a later date. Anyone else interested please tell me yeah? Haha. Wanna ask py and yx along too. Woo. Fun in the sun. Unless it rains of course then it will be a miserable, awful, rainy day.

Today at Amma's house was quite boring. I fell asleep on the couch while the TV was blaring. I woke up to smell fried fish. -.- Stinks man. And when I sat down for dinner I saw fish head curry and freaked out. Lol. So scary. After dinner, just sat alone in a corner eating fruits then needed the toilet again -.- for the third time. -.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

The past few days... My stomach has been quite upset. Whoa. Sounds like personification. And I miss literature. AH!!!! Ok. Back to the topic. I think I've lost another 2kg. At this rate, Maddie is gonna be non-existent soon. Haha.

Ok. Have a wonderful day people (: If you miss me, I miss you too. Unless you are _____, ______ or _______. Say whuuut??!!

Friday, May 23, 2008

SORE

A little R&R still didn't do much for me. Seriously. I'm still in pain.
Call me sick but sometimes I kinda like having muscle aches. Somehow you just feel more in shape because you've pushed yourself to the limit and beyond. But today as I walked around with Carlyn, my legs really hurt. And my feet. AHHH!!! Thankfully there was the yogurt drink to cheer me up. And Carlyn ate yogurt with chocolate chip. It was nice though it sounds weird.

I couldn't find anything to waste my money on. But I got to see my dear friend again. That was nice =D
I rushed to the MRT station to meet her and started perspiring. Unfortunately my perspiration could be seen on my shirt in the front. I know it looked weird but oh well. Whatever.
Some of the clothes we saw are really pieces of crap. I bet I could design better than that. I wanted to buy a shirt. I like shirts. Blouse. Whatever. Collars. I like them. And I wanna buy another dress. But I just couldn't find a nice one. They were all crappy looking. Some were like thrash bags. Shapeless. The silhouettes are non-existent. Man, I don't know how they can sell stuff like that. Just cut random shapes from cloth and charge them at $40. That's what they do.
Py and Yx asked me to join them to watch "What happens in Vegas" with them. But I didn't want to wake up. Not to mention I didn't have a good night. Woke up numerous times FOR NO REASON AT ALL. Ah!!!

I wanna force my mum out tomorrow. I have things that I wanna buy. Things that I shouldn't be using my ang bao money on. But I doubt she'll have the time for me again. Even as I sit here at 2130, she isn't home yet. And to think she left the house before 6? I wish she'd just take things slow. Just not work everyday. And even if she wants to, not to come home late at night. I'm always just missing her. And when I ask her what time she'll be back home she always says "Late. Mummy's swamped today." Damn. All this so she can support her two children. All this cos someone who's supposed to do his job, doesn't. But then again, I don't need him. WE don't need him.

I think Mao and I have a date this coming Monday. We're going to study at the beach while tanning. Just the two of us. I feel like she understands me. And from her voice, you can tell she's a really nice person, she cares. And likewise, Carlyn is like an advice-giver. Very knowledgeable and stuff.
I know I always give advice to people like "If he hurts you, get rid of his sorry ass!" for example but...How often do we practice what we preach? Not often at all. And that's the saddest thing. You always know what's the best for you but somehow, you just make the mistakes you told yourself you would never do. Get yourself hurt, get yourself into shit and all you can do is cry and question "Why is this happening to me?" and "What did I do to deserve this?". It's the silliest thing.

Next week there's GP on Thursday and Chemistry on Friday. Having OG outing on Thursday before the dance concert Restless. The canoeist can't go -.- Camp. So the OG becomes 2 people smaller. "The usual people" is already so few. -.- At least Andrea is coming. It's always nice to see her. It's been a while. I think DeYong is going too. Haha. Homer.
Last week of holiday I'm gonna go back to BP. Hopefully. And see if I can still fence. Though I doubt it.


ENGARDE!!!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

David OR David?

The wrong David won. Darn it!
They've got it wrong once again.

Oh well... Their mistake.

No pain no gain.

We did the ladder thingy again yesterday. I had to lead. And let's just say...I set the pace too fast I almost killed myself too. Not to mention the rest. Especially the new people. I hate it when people take short cuts. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO RUN AROUND THE RACKETS. NOT WALK OVER THEM. Trust me. Everyone was tired. But only true fighters press on. With all the lactic acid building up in our butts and thighs and all. AHH! I thought it would never end. But when it did, I was proud of myself. Because I never stopped, I didn't give up. I am not a quitter.

I made a mistake eating just watermelons for dinner last night. But I just can't help it. I really don't have the appetite these few days. I've even stopped craving for fried food. ):

Today was the most tiring day ever. On the way to school in the cab, I dozed off. My legs are aching. My bag weighs a ton. Like py says, I carry rocks to school everyday. I forgot to clear my bag. The goggles are still inside getting crushed by random things including the RJ KS BULL. -.- I keep wanting to doze off during lectures, mostly because of all the fatigue and not the monotonous voices. I might have dozed off on the train back home too. Luckily there were seats, or my shoulder would've gave way. Hmmm. Today is the earliest we're dismissed other than Wednesday. So I got home, took a shower and slept for 2 hours. A nap never felt so good.

I know I had a weird dream last night. I woke up in the middle of the night and thought "OH! ______________" Then when I woke up again for school I suddenly remembered my dream again. Started silent laughing to myself. It was rather...Interesting.

I wanna drink pomegranate juice, eat yogurt and fruits everyday. I wanna sleep 10 hours a day. I wanna go out. Will this be accomplished? I seriously doubt it.

I think I'm weird today.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

FULL OF....

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it. Shit. Why are they ALL LEAVING US?!!?!?!??!!?!

I like Mrs Singh. She's so nice. And I think we haven't been giving her the respect she deserves. AH! Not me but as a whole, we just haven't been little angels. Although she didn't really have a choice - I think- maybe there was a part of her that wanted to leave too. I don't know. I just don't know. It's so frustrating. And I think Eugene Chua is leaving as well. CRAP!!! HE IS FREAKING NICE LA! AND SO IS SHE. WTH. Is life starting to be unfair?

NAH.

I failed my math. Which is so expeected. I even made a bet with Angela. And of course I won. Cos I already knew I'd fail. LOL. Nvm. Maddie will work even harder to achieve what she wants. If there is one thing I love and admire about her is her sheer TENACITY! Heh. She never fails to impress me. Seriously. She rocks. (:

Once again, it's time to reveal my byl-ness. HEHE HAHA HOHOHO (py! this is for you!)

AHEM! GP pro speaking!

LOL. Maybe not so pro la. Just that ___________________________. Haha.

Let me quote what Mrs Singh wrote about my essay. Note: She came from RJ. Means her standards are high. (:

Verbatim "Excellent command of EL and maturity of thoughts. Able to express sophisticated ideas in a clear and fluent manner. Promising! (:"

WOO! How extremely awesome am I? HAHA.

Hey. Let me have my moment ok? And that's not a question.

But somehow...I like to use Singlish. I remember I used "sia" in a conversation with YX and she burst out laughing cos it's SO NOT ME. I'm not as ang moh as you think. I'm rather Chindian. YEA.

Admiring my racket now. Ah....

Wow crap. It's chinese oral conversation tomorrow. HAHA. I'm gonna die. I'll just laugh at myself. I think I may not even understand what the teacher is saying. Ok. It's gonna be like staring at death in it's face. But whatever. I asked for it anyway.

Hmmm. My mum's new car is really nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Went for a spin just now and whoa. It's much more quiet and much more powerful than a Mazda3. We found a secluded place just now and then started ramming. (: Oh man. Mummy says when I get my degree she'll get me a car. I want!!! Oh man. The car is white. And looks like a Lexus from a distance. But when you get closer...BLEAH! It's only another Mazda. Mazda again. Cos my uncle's brother works there. I think we got the tinting for free. I think. 2litre car. Every time you pump petrol is like $110 already. Lol. Maybe should get a hybrid car. I think the Honda Civic Hybrid is quite nice. I think it's too early to discuss this. I won't be getting my liscence any time soon. -.- Unlike my brother. Maybe the old car give to him and I get a new car. Haha.

I miss CARLYN LEE! (I'm only saying this cos I know she's going to read this soon haha)

Joking! I miss my 4p2. And Mr Osgodby and the rest too!!!!

Give me a blade and let me fence!

Monday, May 19, 2008

Listen and you will learn (:

Sometimes, you have to go through heartache before you find happiness.

This, I know (:

-.-

This is so pissing.

PW. What a pain in the arse.

Tolerance.

I will make it...

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Celebrate good times =)

Yes!

I sang "Stolen" many times today...

You have stolen my heart~~~~~

Yes, Mao, I'm a bit "sot". And yes lyn, Mad is indeed quite mad... And very lame these few days.

I shall do my ECONnect tomorrow! =) And my chinese. And my PW plus my GP essay outline. Hope I can finish. =) At least I know Johnny hasn't started either. LOL.

I love cars. I love many things. What's there not to love?

I haven't laughed so hard in my life. I swear, laughing is the best way to achieve your desired abs. But it was rather painful. Aunty Marion and I were talking about moles. With hair. Hahahaha! On women. LOL.

It seems, every family dinner, at the dinner table, we never fail to start another conversation about faeces. So gross. But every week, we do it.

Ah. What a nice day.

I will pray for an even better day.

Forever and always. (:

Thank you God for all that You've done for me. Thank You for pulling me out of the darkness. I would have never made it without knowing that You were there. You are always there.

"Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause."

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Oh man. I just realised that yesterday's the most fun I've had the entire week. =D I know I joke a lot in school especially with py and yixian and the squash people...But yesterday was really fun. BP friends are still the ones who talk the most crap, are the most byl people one earth (other than Kanye West), simply the most fun. And all those sweet memories walking to school, walking home from school, the 187 rides, the 300 rides, the lot1 nonsense. Recently, I went to walk around lot1 alone. I think it was last Saturday. And it's really changed. Py and I were saying how in secondary school we were so bored of lot1 until "HUH! Lot1 again! Sianzzzzzzzzzzzz". And now it's more like "Let's go lot1 man!" Yeah. It's just not the same anymore. Firstly, Buona Vista is like so...Nearby only has Holland V and Dover Market. And it's just not what I want.

Yesterday...Hmmm. What were we talking about? Oh yes. Buddy meal at KFC. Kian Min and Zhan Peng bought a buddy meal. Then I raised the question what if BUDDIES came together? Like 3. Buddy meal is only for 2. Jiawei's response: "Ask them for Buddies Meal la." Ya smart right. Kian Min asked to send in a proposal -.- Then Jiawei and his "shy-ness". He tries his best to be as humble as he can. But he just can't. Cos it's very contradicting. And by saying that he's not handsome is like lying to his friends. LOL. DION! Abandon your good friends for your girlfriend la. GOOD GOOD. On the train, I tried to scare him by saying I was going to drop his laptop. But then I had to repay him if I did, with my better, cooler yet hotter, limited and special edition HP entertainment notebook. NO WAY IN HELL. Haha. Took the bus with Zhan Peng back. Though people drift apart, there's always that affinity. And it always feels good to catch up with them every now and then.

AH! I wanted to say something! BUT I FORGOT! I hate this!

Walau. You distracted me...

Ok. Today was CIP again. And I was able to exercise my leadership skills again man... Haha. Did paperwork today cos the kids went swimming. So Ms Raja asked me to help her with other stuff. Had to show some "creativity". She said she wants to observe us so when she writes testimonials she can praise us to high heaven. Ha. She didn't say that. I just made that up. No. But she did mention "creativity" and "testimonial".
It was very cold sitting directly in front of the aircon. In school at least py can warm me up. Does that sound wrong? HAHA. As in she can hold my hand for a few seconds to transfer heat. Whoa. I suddenly remember thermal physics...Then Mr Chiam. Lol. Joker. Make me fail my physics in lower sec. He could only make fun of me during physics class. But even that...Good times, good times.

I don't know why but today I came across many, and I mean MANY, TALL people. I hate it. Make me feel shorter only. Haha. Actually I'm over it. Short short la. So tall for what? Short doesn't mean cannot have a tall boyfriend right. Haha. Though a bit inconvenient la. HAHA. Omg. Why am I saying this? Tsk. OH OH! Then there was this damn tall guy... Damn shuai. It's the type py will like, I'm sure of it. He looks like some chinese Beckham. But not very chinese. He was wearing aviators too. Whoa. Haha. Py loves Beckham and ____, and _____ and _____ and got some more not? Joking. More like infatuation la. HAHA!

Hmmm... I had to have my soya bean milk again. I'm seriously getting addicted to soy products. Then I walked home under the midday sun. Was nice. At least it wasn't like yesterday's mid afternoon sun. I could feel my legs burning. Haiya. Then got disturbed by a bunch of boys again. -.- Asses. Stop staring la ********.

Got home and took a nap. =) Whoa more sleep!!! Woke up and ate some really sweet oranges and drank pomegranate juice. Ah heaven. Until my mum came back and question me about where I went yesterday. I called her specifically last night to tell her my exact location and she forgot again! Then as I got up to stomp angrily away... I hit my head against the wall!!! AHH. =((((((( Mummy laughed at me. Then I tried to control myself and continue giving the bushuang face but I couldn't! I started laughing too. =(((((

Tomorrow I shall sleep in. Must do ECONnect and the content page for PW. As yixian would put it.... "Sians to the max!" Shall go to Amma's house and joke around with Aunty Marion again. And see the rabbit and my beloved Cosmo. =) Woo!

I'm full of life. For now at least. Don't burst my bubble. Occasions like this don't come often. That's why it's called an OCCASION.




If you didn't notice, you mean everything.
Love carries on...

Friday, May 16, 2008

Guess who's back!

ME. =)

I'm back from slacking at BP while py tried her very best to tutor. I just sat there and observed. Proud to say, I do still remember O level stuff. =) O level Chemistry - A1. =) =) =) What a lovely surprise. Haha. Actually I knew I'd get A1. Sigh. All my failed attempts at being humble :/

They were giving out certificates for the ex-BPians. So I was some extra person at the corner trying to blend in. I tried to avoid Mr Tan Hak Soon but he saw me. Damn it! LOL. This time he said "I've missed you." and all I could say was "OK!" Weird la. HA.
I remember for prom, I tried my best to avoid him too. Cos I didn't want him to say anything. It's like "You can run, but you can't hide." He was able to "find" me. He said "You look very sweet my dear!" Omg. HAHA. Mhmmmm.... "You look good ^^"

Py, Jiawei, Kian Min, Zhan Peng and I slacked at KFC until 1030. So I just reached home about 30 minutes ago. And there's CIP tomorrow. I'm glad at least I don't have to study on the train to Queenstown for now. I can just enjoy my music. Music deprivation these few days man...I need my daily dose. Either that or I have to sing. Poor py will die. HA. Ok la. My voice cannot be that bad if not I wouldn't have gotten into choir in primary school. =) And my dancing can't be that bad either cos I was in chinese dance in primary school too. WOO! Proud of it! =) Okok...Back to the KFC thing. I've never spoken to Kian Min before but he seems like a very nice person. Can get along quite well. So envious la. He's SO genius. Our batch's top scorer for O's. He looked so out of place in his HCI uniform. But he's pretty funny too. We joked around. Like the char siew pau and man tou joke. So lame. SAME FEELING MA!!! Then we talked about how useless PW is. And our group members. *cough*

I couldn't resist Mr Bean again. Their ice cream is damn nice. =) And it's quite alot. So it's worth the $1.50. And got health benefits when you eat soy products blahblahblah. This week made me have so many new pimples la. Crap. When I'm stressed I'll put on weight also due to a certain problem I cannot mention here. HAHA. Py knows. It's... Better left unsaid. =)

I was a good friend today. I could have played volleyball, but I decided to pace py and run with her 2 rounds then bleacher jump (ok I skipped this and watched her suffer haha) and did lunges with her. So I was telling her that I did a good deed today. I am rather satisfied with life despite all the nagging problems, irritating people, deadlines and other stuff.

Py quite sad today la. Haha. Me too me too. Sort of. But still happy la. Finally can sleep a bit longer. I promise to sleep at least 12 hours 4 times a week for the rest of the holidays. Unless I have a date then different story. But sleep is more important. =) It is my number 1 priority. Blame it on my bed for being too nice and comfy. I can just lie smack in the middle and spreadeagled. Whoa whole bed to myself unlike some people have to share beds. LOSERS! HAHA. I'm glad no one dares to sleep in my room. Since it looks haunted. But that's good. I get my own privacy. My brother will never dare sleep in my room. Must be all the wood and the freaky mirror. Looks like a scene in some vampire movie.

Yay! Time to sleep now! =) =) Goodnight people! Sweetest dreams to you, you and especially YOU!

=)

"I'm carrying your heart in mine..."

Thursday, May 15, 2008

One day to go...

Tomorrow's the last paper! FINALLY! This week has been another crappy week.

Physics dynamics test - FAIL for sure
GP Package test - Pass/Fail. RARR.
Math - Duh.
Chinese oral - Man, I rock! Haha. Bu cuo bu cuo. Mei you cuo zi. Teacher said so herself. Reading in front of the whole class is like... quite scary. But then again, not everyone's chinese is that great either. So we just laugh at each other. Yun Zhang's reading is damn funny!!! I really LMAO! I tried my best to control my laughter, really I did. But I couldn't. The funniest thing all day. HAHA.
Econs test tomorrow. I'm working hard on it. But currently waiting for my dear yixian to finish her work to help me =)

Yay! I played tennis today. Like my first time but I know it doesn't seem like it. Cos...I'm way too talented. Lol. Joking...
But seriously, I think I'm pretty good. I had some really good shots and serves. HEHE.
Johnny was really pissed. He asked me to take over him because "Playing with you guys is worse than running 2.4" and he told Min later that "I had to get all their shit balls..." But he said I was quite good. Woo!

I think I sound really happy. It's because I can finally get more sleep soon. I've been sleeping pretty late throughout the week. Last night while reading my GP package, I almost fell off the chair as I dozed off. Then I decided...Maybe I should just go to bed since I'm not absorbing anything anyways.

I reached home at 8 yesterday. Late la... Had squash. I managed to avoid the ladder thingy because I had to mug in the library. OH OH! Then I only missed 1/30 balls so I only had to round one lap. HAHA! That's the least ok...
Then decided to play a little longer and run. I always wanna run but no one wants to run with me till I beg them to. They think I'm MAD. Ha. Running is so much fun. Cherene and I ran 4 rounds around the track? We were goofing around doing stupid things while running like some chinese dance stuff. Haha. Both ex-dancers man. How cool is that?! I remember once while playing I did some weird pose and everyone was like "Chinese dancer!" So entertaining...
I got my chio chio racket already. HAHAHA! I'm $175 poorer now.

Ok. Time to study now... Can't wait for tomorrow. =)

Ah... I'm happy.

Just keep smiling. =)


"I was praying for the light I see in your eyes..."

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Extreme Makeover, MAD edition.

Ok ok. I've learned my lesson.

Math cannot be done at the very last minute. Especially when you've never really understood anything. Heh. Soon...I will be one of the top in Math in the class. Just you people watch! Can you sense the motivation and te-te-te-tenacity? HAHA.

I really should be studying for my physics test now. But I'm not doing that. Exactly how much more can you cram into your head in just a few hours? Only formulas. Nothing else. I know I'm quite hopeless for physics la. I'm not in denial. But I'll try my best. Just as I do for everything else.

Some things must shatter into a million pieces before you realise it needs fixing.

When you fall into the abyss, find your way out. Climb, crawl and claw your way out if you must. Just do it! Sometimes you need to fall before you ever learn your lesson.

When you're in the ground and can't stoop any lower, the only way is up. You build up the walls that have crumbled.

No slacking in June Madelene. Resist the temptations. Fight them! I'm gonna be very guai. =) woo! I can hardly contain the excitement. LOL. Ok. I don't know if that last sentence was sarcastic but whatever... Ha.

No no... Life IS beautiful =D

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I love my mummy =D

Happy Mother's Day!

Today I received an sms from Raphael again. It said : "Happy mother's day mad! Hope u have a fun day with ur mum.. too bad i cant celebrate mother's day with you... im celebrating with another madelene..haha!"

You see... His mother's name is Madelene too. Haha. And that is the one thing I remembered about him all these years. That his mummy has the same name as me. Same spelling too. Cool.

My mummy, as usual, went to work today. Now my cousin's working for her again. Until the end of this year then he's taking his O levels. He plans to be a big shot director like George Lucas one day. He's 20 years of age and earning $6000 a month. Sick! I wonder whether I'll ever earn as much? Lol.

She was the latest to come to Amma's house. She came with a 10kg watermelon. Yes, 10kg. And 2 boxes of mangoes and mangosteens.

We ordered pizza. Hmmm. And I ate 3 big slices of the watermelon and 4 slices of pizza. That's it.

Mother's day. What is it about? To me, it's a day to show even more appreciation to your mother. I don't know about you people out there but, mums are the best people on earth! They will always be the one who cares even when your father abandons you. Trust me, I know. What's the point of getting your mum something special just one day each year? No. You show your love and appreciation each and every day. Don't let you mummy down. Never lie to your mum. Do small little things for her every day even if it seems like she doesn't appreciate it.

I remember writing an essay on "The person I admire the most" last year. Mr Osgodby gave me 28/30. Or was it 29/30? Anyway, it was a beautiful essay. I'm proud of it. You know, it's so easy to tell your friends about how much you love your mum but so difficult to tell your mum those 3 words. I'm guilty of this. But then again, actions speak louder than words. I let my mummy know that I'll always be eternally grateful for all the love she's showered on us and to let her know that I'm really thankful that she didn't pack up and leave just because things were rough before. She's a strong woman. My mummy is beautiful in every sense of the word.

I'm not an angel. I don't deny that. I do things to piss her off. I say horrible things at times. I sometimes throw tempers. I made my mummy cry this year over the most stupidest mistake of my life. Yet she never gave up on me. And I cannot be more blessed.

Mummy, I <3 you. =)

Life is beautiful and love conquers all.

You're the light that makes my darkness disappear...

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Take a breath

It's been a stressful week.

As Johnny said : I just want to get the next week over and done with...Why can't schools be for friends and cca? Dammit.

Good question. Dumb answer: Life isn't all fun and games. WELL, not a dumb answer. Just a fact we gotta face up to.

Today I went to LIFE again. My kid was Pravin today. What a bright boy. He makes me smile. I'm glad I'm actually making a difference in someone else's life. It's a wonderful feeling. =)

I "loned" at Lot1 library for 2 hours or so reading my GP Environment package. I didn't get much done. I was practically falling asleep and my eyes kept watering, my eyesight getting worse by the second. Aww dammit. =( Like it's not bad enough. I'm definitely going for Lasik. I can't wait for the day when I can wake up and see the world oh-so clearly. Only when you're older you realise that you really gotta take care of your body and your health and your eyesight too. AHHHH!!!

Met Jia Juan at about 3. She taught me some acronyms for econs and easier ways to remember some math formulas. So I'm really satisfied. Cos at least I've learned something today. Probably more than I learn during those totally crappy math lectures. =( We talked about life. It was nice to see her again. She always cheers me up, gets my mind off all the pandemonium. It's nice. =)

Yesterday, I went to East coast for a seafood dinner. I don't even like seafood. -.- I was allergic to it before. Like when I was much younger. I've grown out of it but I still don't like it! I just ate a bit of lobster and prawns and like a spoonful of crab. I just ate lots of chilli kangkong. I swear...kangkong is the best vegetable on earth though you tend to choke on it easily. Drank alot of green tea. After that was Mac 24 hours drive-thru for ice cream. I fed my mum her sundae while she drove. Of course it was all melted. And she bought one extra sundae for who knows what reason. Gave it to Toa Payoh grandma but I think it's too cold for her la. She's only got one tooth left. OH! She fell while getting out of the car. So scary! Everything was in slow motion. I almost died. Like...NOOOO!!! But too late. She fell. Luckily it was quite grassy. I held her arm all the while after that while walking. But I told my mum...If she fell I'd probably fall on top of her and make everything worse.

Ok. This is too much info but... I didn't wash my hair yesterday. And my classmates should know why that is INSANELY gross. I ran 2km. And people thought I took a shower. NO. It's my perspiration. Heh... Don't get my wrong. I wanted to wash my hair after getting home but it was almost midnight and my mum forbid me to. Being a mummy's girl I listened to her. But I got my maid to change the pillow cover already. =) Another irritating thing: I ran with Jennifer and I swear my timing would have been over a minute faster had I finished the run. DARN IT.

I like Eugene Chua. He's damn cool. He almost knocked me down with his white Civic. I was walking with py and he just swerved towards us. Then we saw him laughing. Haha. And his passenger too. Hmmm. He got pissed at us for taking our time again. So he ripped the paper with our timings and all. And went : Poor Madelene and Peishi ran their 2.4 twice already blahblahblah... Ya. It was quite upsetting la. Our class always pisses our teachers off. I managed to get my gold. But it's not good enough seriously. I don't like it. I've stopped fencing for a year and everything has dropped at least a grade.

Ok. Hmmm.

To Function Graph g(x),
Thank you for remembering my birthday one day too late. =) I didn't leave you out la. The thanks was on my mind. LOL.

Now back to work. Mummy forgive me for all the tests I will be failing. =(

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Simpsons =D

I forgot Deyong! Haha. How can I forget my favourite OGL?! Deyong... You look like Homer =D But skinnier and less bald. Yay! I just complimented you. =)

Had squash today. Had fun with that ladder thingy... Our coordination so much better now. But many of us have blisters now. My socks too thin. And... I BOUGHT A NEW RACKET! It's a Prince o3 Hybrid Light. Heh... I'm only spending this money cos I have the money AT THE MOMENT. FYI: I DO NOT have a steady cash flow!

Just finished my GP essay. Gonna do chinese now =) Yay again! I am proud to announce that I have never ponned chinese class and I've handed in ALL my work. This is the first time ever I'm so guai. In secondary school, I owed my teacher like every single baozhangbaodao and evreything else. I am proud of myself.

Time to study real hard. The library is a condusive place to study. The cubicles, not the other tables. Yup. Ok chinese time! I hope to lower my 2.4 timing next time. Or I'll be pissed again =(

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

another 365 days older

Ah yes. 5/5. C'mon, it's so damn easy to remember, ain't it? HA.

I have to thank many people now.
alicia, peiyi, yixian, jiajuan, justin, junsiew, maureen, natalie, raphael, farrina, kenny, steph, canida, andrea, izabel, zach, dion, jiawei, carlyn, melissa, tiffany, jiayi, gabriel, peishi and all those who bought the cake for me. I know there are 12 of you but I cant recall all. And you guys embarrassed me in the canteen la. Sing so loud. =( But still. Thanks a million. Next person's birthday we can use cake to bribe the chinese teacher again. Haha. If there's anyone I've forgotten to mention, I'm sorry...But I left you out on purpose! MUAHAHAHA!

I think cards are the sweetest things. Just a short little note that tells you you're on someone's mind, that someone treasures you, that you are a friend. i received a few and I have to say they are really touching. =) Even Raphael < this name reminds me of the teenage mutant ninja turtles =) He wanted to meet me last night to pass it to me. And I have to say his card is quite hilarious. "I hope you smile for the next 365 days so that your dimple will not go to waste." Haha. Sweet la.

Then there was Dion, Zach and Jiawei's smses. I received 3, one after another. The first read "happy", the second read "birthday" and the last read " to you". Zach says it took them "alot of creativity, teamwork, timing and accuracy" and also 1/1000 of their valuable smses too! It's funny how a handful of the smses I received said "happy birthday sexay". This word "sexay" is so reminiscent of the orientation days. =) And Canida still answers the phone with "hey sexay!".

Hmmm. Alicia owes me a big bear hug and MUACKS MUACKS! Hehe.
Oh and Marcus. Sweet talker! More beautiful eh? LOL! I almost died when you said that. But it's ok. You have good taste i must say. Haha. okok better not bu yao lian. HEY! Chinese again! Damn my chinese is good =D

I'm gonna spend all the moola. =) Firstly, I think I shall use the money mummy gave me to buy a nice Prince o3 racket. Maybe... Shall ask Coach tomorrow. =) Whoa squash is so fun. But I'm so tired. My 2.4 sucks like hell. I'm gonna rerun again. I shall keep running till I'm satisfied! Next, hmmm. See first. Standard la. Only can buy clothes, bag, shoes blahblahblah. Ah new asics! =)

Yay! Econs test is postponed. That leaves me more time to do my GPP "The Puppet Dance" and my GP essay. Wow my handwriting rocks! I just suddenly realised after looking at my incomplete essay. There's really alot of work to do. =( I'm so freaking scared of the math test. I don't like "0". I remember getting a 0 for vlee's test before. But that was ok since alot of people got 0 also. I'm not trying to say I want more people to get zero so I can feel better. But...AH! Nvm. I deserve to fail this test. I haven't been doing enough math. In fact, it is the subject that I slack the most in other than physics. I got back my physics test today and I got 6/20. Lol. That's expected la. Physics has always been my worst subject other than chinese. Ah no! Chinese oral is coming up. Woo scary!

Ok I know the above content can cause emotional and psychological distress to some people. Better stop talking about work le. =) CHILL.

Please wear your black specs. Thank you =)

I feel like listening to BSB. I'm so obsessed.

Take my hand. Take my life. Just don't take forever...

Monday, May 5, 2008

TY TY!

Thanks for all the warm wishes. I shall elaborate further later in the week. It's late! And I have to run tomorrow. =(

Much love,
Maddie =)

Friday, May 2, 2008

Procrastinating

Yes. I am procrastinating.

Let's see... Hmmm... I have chemistry test on Monday. Econs essay test on Wednesday. I have yet to start on my environment package. I am so screwed for math. I know nuts bout physics. Yeah. And etc.

Today for 2.4, I ran 2.0. Ah. You ask why. The answer is simple. Some people can't count. No no, not me. Haha. Some other people. I knew it, I was right. I only ran 5 rounds but ps stopped running, and ec asked me why I was still running. Like duh! Cos it's only been 5 rounds. And I thought I was some idiot. -.- Angry. Means I have to run another 2.4 on Tuesday with the guys. Darn! Haiya. Napha sucks la... My fitness has gone down the drain. Angry!

There's interact Newspaper collection tomorrow. Haha. 9am-4pm. Waste more time. And I took the exco form today during meeting. Imagine. Madelene Poon, President of Interact Club! HAHAHA. I'm not saying I'm not capable of the responsibility, but have you ever seen such a misfit? Interact president who can't interact with others? More like president of the dao-ist club? Everytime py's friend says hi to me and I say hi or nod or smile, she says I give her the dao face again. Like that's just me la. What do you want me to do? Haha. Dao-ist. Sometimes la. Can't deny also.

Walking to Buona Vista MRT, I started singing "I'm getting over you" and NA looked back. I think py was quite embarrassed but, haha, I like to embarrass people cos I'm not embarrassed to embarrass myself. Comprehend? I sang "I'm getting over you, whoa. I'm getting over you most of the time. If I say it like I mean it then maybe I'll believe it like it's true. I'm getting over you!!!!"

On the train, we wasted 3 minutes of our lives trying to make letters with one hand. For example, trying to make a "G" with one hand. Try it. It's not easy. She tried to make "MOMO" and I taught her a good way to do that. =) Yes. Then she said "We've just wasted 3 minutes of our lives. HAHAHA. (HOHOHO?)"

Oh! Some councillor told me he likes my nerdy purple specs. =)

Yeah yeah. I'm quite happy. =D

Thursday, May 1, 2008

May Day

Ah crap. 2 posts ago, I boasted that I could sleep till words don't rhyme. Yet, this morning, my mummy dragged me out of bed using emotional blackmail. Of course I did put up a fight saying I had lots of work to do, my exams are coming etc. But my mummy kept pleading and saying "I'm dying..." Then I was like, "Ask Jeremy la. That lazy boy has nothing to do yadayadayada." But my mummy says I have to run the company one day so I gotta do it. Fine. I got up at 9 (way too early) just to go to the freaking office. SIGH.

We had tim sum for breakfast at Crystal Jade at CWP. As usual, I ate too much. And I'm wondering... Who the hell eats dessert in the morning? Me? Yes, I do. Next time anyone goes to Crystal Jade, try the black pepper beef or something. It's really good. And the scallop porridge. =)

Ok so at the office, no air con. 13th storey. Thankfully there was a breeze.

When you're alone in the toilets of UIC building, the silence is deafening. You start to imagine all kinds of things like ghosts behind you. Creepy. I always get chills.

Finished working at about 4. I saw this very bad accident. One car was overturned at the curb and the other car was totally crushed in the front. Was trying to get a good look at whether there was anyone trapped in the overturned car. Whoa scary. =( Then again, my mum is the pro at accidents. She has gotten into 2 in under a year. And the most recent one cost her $21,000 in damages. Thank goodness she bought a new car. Mazda 6 Sport. =) White. =) And she bid for 2145. Wasted a thousand dollars on that.

All the tests are coming up. I'm gonna fail terribly. Especially math. Ah! I miss Vlee la. He's like the best math teacher I ever had. Last time I even failed math in lower sec, like F9s. Then since Vlee started teaching me A Math in sec3, my E math could finally get A1. A math obviously O levels get A1 la. Vlee what...

I need tuition I think. Sometimes I really don't know what's going on. ARGH. This is so sickening.

Silence

I'll bet two years
I'll bet one year
I'll bet those years
You won't be here

I guess I'll keep
I guess you'll keep
Every memory
Sadly we may never be

I'll bet my tears
I'll bet your tears
I'll bet those tears
Over time could disappear

Wait a minute I have more to say
And I care if you're listening to me

I need you more than you'll ever know
Still do, willing to let it show
I need a minute just to get to you
I feel like I might be getting through
Come over and say nothing
Silence is everything

I know, I know
Feelings can sh0w
If you let go
It must be told
That I've got a hold
On what we used to have

I will forgive if you forget
All the things we said
Let's accept it

I need you more than you'll ever know
Still do, willing to let it show
I need a minute just to get to you
I feel like I might be getting through
Come over and say nothing
Silence is everything