Made it down to Crossfit today. Second session only! Now I'm nice and sore. Don't we just love that feeling?! Tastes like accomplishment to me (:
In teams of 3:
180 Wall Balls
180 KB Swings
180 Burpees
1800m weighted plate run
Ok la. I used the lightest of everything but still... I'm not as man as people think I am! Good workout, following yesterday's plyometrics. Both make me really chuan... I hate burpees! It came to a point, I really wanted to puke already! And had to take short breaks between each burpee. SIGH. BURPEEEEEEEES! Shall do more at home. Actually Insanity has something like that too. But it's called Level 1-3 drills. Level 1 - 4 push ups. Level 2 - 8, level 3 - 16. So fierce! Haha! Really, don't know why I 'torture' myself sometimes. Ok... Actually I do know why. Just that people don't understand. They think I'm talking nonsense. I hate it when people say, "We're all going to die anyway. Just eat anything you want." Shit no! They obviously don't care about the quality of life. If I get sick and all when I'm older, I'm gonna be a burden and worry to my family. And I will be suffering too. So, I'll stick with my YTF with no rice/noodle, chicken rice with no rice! (: Yummy.
SOMEONE is so fickle can... Haha. Cute (: Makes me smile thinking about it :P
Food journal 10/9
Breakfast:
Oatmeal with peanut butter, banana
Lunch:
Ji Pa
Damn filling stuff. All that protein!
Dinner:
YTF
I don't care what people say! I will eat YTF whenever I please (:
A glass of milk to end the day. So shiok. I can't believe I ever hated milk before...
Tomorrow is mugging day. I can't believe I have to go school on Sunday for TWC! OMG! SUNDAY ): My beloved Sundays )))):
Agenda for tomorrow:
Complete pre-reading for biz law
Attempt biz law assignment so I can class part!
Research on building and construction technology. Wonder if we can talk about rigs. Will be interesting!
Time to sleep soon. Will be so shiok with all the soreness! Wish me luck in waking up tomorrow morning. Haha!
Anyway, this song is really nice!
By My Side by David Choi
I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.
I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.
All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.
No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.
SWEET! (:
Friday, September 10, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
9/9
Today, we had LTB. And it was a disaster... Never get me to draw lots, cos I always end up getting "1".
I picked "1" again today. Worst thing was more than half the group was late!!! C'mon guys! I haven't slept properly in 3 days and I can still wake up at 6am and reach school twenty minutes early! We need some discipline! Next week, I will give serial latecomer, Jit Yew a wake up call! And Timb Homer Alejandro better not go Phuture or Mambo or Butter! Damn, LTB. I think it takes up a lot more time than any other module. But it's still one module! I think our project is pretty good though. E-waste awareness and recycling... Better than just going down to a home one day and expect sustainability. We'll see how our project goes. I really hope it's a success! A+ people! :D
I finally found time to workout today. Haven't really had a chance since last Friday. Things have been crazy. Like a series of really unfortunate, depressing events ): Really got me down, but I think I will do just fine. I have such wonderful people around me, giving me a lot of support. I also realised, in my 4 years of friendship with Peiyi, I never hugged her the way I did yesterday. And it really brought me a lot of comfort. I just released all the hurt inside, we just cried. But it helped. Really crying is... powerful. And hugs, one of the best ways to show your love and concern.
Anyways, digressed...
Today was plyometrics circuit training. I think it's been a month or more since I stopped Insanity. When I looked at the mirror... Mmm... Was in better shape before. Fortunately, Muay Thai starts officially next week! (: And I'm gonna order my equipment from Thailand! Excited. But I don't know which designs to pick! Someone help me please! (: I send you catalogue, you help me see (:
Food journal 9/9
Breakfast:
Scrambled eggs with toast
2nd breakfast:
One soon kueh
Really lack of choices in school ): And queue for coffee at Koufu damn long ):
Lunch:
At Glassroom Cafe,
Porkfessor Sandwich
Yapple (apple blended with yakult)
I am not a big fan of pork, but this lean pork isn't really very porky, so I just had it. Was good. Next time I will try not to eat the bun! But was so hungry. SIGH. Half the group had Carbonara (yikes! pasta!) and potato salad (mayo!).
The drink was pretty good. I mean, better than choosing Coke or Iced Lemon Tea.
Dinner:
Nice hor. My perfect dinner. Chicken breast, mushrooms and brocolli!!!!!!!
2 squeezed oranges
1 cup green tea
Indulgence:
1 piece chocolate (:
Makes me happy!!!!
Another thing that makes me happy... New clothes! Got 5 new pieces today through trades! I likey (:
I picked "1" again today. Worst thing was more than half the group was late!!! C'mon guys! I haven't slept properly in 3 days and I can still wake up at 6am and reach school twenty minutes early! We need some discipline! Next week, I will give serial latecomer, Jit Yew a wake up call! And Timb Homer Alejandro better not go Phuture or Mambo or Butter! Damn, LTB. I think it takes up a lot more time than any other module. But it's still one module! I think our project is pretty good though. E-waste awareness and recycling... Better than just going down to a home one day and expect sustainability. We'll see how our project goes. I really hope it's a success! A+ people! :D
I finally found time to workout today. Haven't really had a chance since last Friday. Things have been crazy. Like a series of really unfortunate, depressing events ): Really got me down, but I think I will do just fine. I have such wonderful people around me, giving me a lot of support. I also realised, in my 4 years of friendship with Peiyi, I never hugged her the way I did yesterday. And it really brought me a lot of comfort. I just released all the hurt inside, we just cried. But it helped. Really crying is... powerful. And hugs, one of the best ways to show your love and concern.
Anyways, digressed...
Today was plyometrics circuit training. I think it's been a month or more since I stopped Insanity. When I looked at the mirror... Mmm... Was in better shape before. Fortunately, Muay Thai starts officially next week! (: And I'm gonna order my equipment from Thailand! Excited. But I don't know which designs to pick! Someone help me please! (: I send you catalogue, you help me see (:
Food journal 9/9
Breakfast:
Scrambled eggs with toast
2nd breakfast:
One soon kueh
Really lack of choices in school ): And queue for coffee at Koufu damn long ):
Lunch:
At Glassroom Cafe,
Porkfessor Sandwich
Yapple (apple blended with yakult)
I am not a big fan of pork, but this lean pork isn't really very porky, so I just had it. Was good. Next time I will try not to eat the bun! But was so hungry. SIGH. Half the group had Carbonara (yikes! pasta!) and potato salad (mayo!).
The drink was pretty good. I mean, better than choosing Coke or Iced Lemon Tea.
Dinner:
Nice hor. My perfect dinner. Chicken breast, mushrooms and brocolli!!!!!!!
2 squeezed oranges
1 cup green tea
Indulgence:
1 piece chocolate (:
Makes me happy!!!!
Another thing that makes me happy... New clothes! Got 5 new pieces today through trades! I likey (:
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Forever in our hearts
Today, we bid him goodbye. He was a great guy and we will never forget him.
Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break,
but all in vain.
To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of one's heart.
The years may wipe out many things
But some they wipe out never.
Like memories of those happy times
When we were all together.
May God guide you in your new journey my friend.
I am sorry I had to cry. It's just that we all will miss you.
There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love. And we all love you.
I know you'll find a way to read our messages. Even those on FB. Thanks for leaving such an indelible mark in our lives!
Rest in peace Raj. You will live in our hearts always (:
Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break,
but all in vain.
To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of one's heart.
The years may wipe out many things
But some they wipe out never.
Like memories of those happy times
When we were all together.
May God guide you in your new journey my friend.
I am sorry I had to cry. It's just that we all will miss you.
There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love. And we all love you.
I know you'll find a way to read our messages. Even those on FB. Thanks for leaving such an indelible mark in our lives!
Rest in peace Raj. You will live in our hearts always (:
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Isaiah 40:18-31
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Never Gone
You were like a brother to me. I wish I could've stayed all night. I'm really grateful for the time I got to spend with you, although little, it was enough for me to know just how a nice guy you are. Now, you're gone. And yes, we are grieving. But you are in a better place now. God will hold you. God takes those he loves best.
This is how you described yourself : "BORN TO PUT A SMILE ON EVERYONE......" You did. At least for me.
I will see you again tomorrow to say goodbye. But you're never gone in the hearts of those who loved you.
I will miss you badly...
I'm lucky. I've never lost a family member. But I know it's inevitable. I can't imagine the pain of the loss. Now he's gone, it already hurts so badly. How do I not crumble? I just lay on the ground and grieved.
I will kneel in prayer.
Never gone, never far, in my heart is where you are.
Always close, every day, every step along the way.
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you will be forever in my life.
Never gone...
This is how you described yourself : "BORN TO PUT A SMILE ON EVERYONE......" You did. At least for me.
I will see you again tomorrow to say goodbye. But you're never gone in the hearts of those who loved you.
I will miss you badly...
I'm lucky. I've never lost a family member. But I know it's inevitable. I can't imagine the pain of the loss. Now he's gone, it already hurts so badly. How do I not crumble? I just lay on the ground and grieved.
I will kneel in prayer.
Never gone, never far, in my heart is where you are.
Always close, every day, every step along the way.
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you will be forever in my life.
Never gone...
Monday, September 6, 2010
Buddy
The library had no reception. So when I got out, I saw that sms from my mum. It really hurt. But I tried to be strong. I went back to the meeting, but I had to leave. My heart's just not in it now. I broke down in front of them all and Cynthia gave me a hug. I have really nice friends. And I would really like to thank every one of them. But I just can't speak about it. Not now... I can't stop crying.
I just went to his FB. And I saw messages posted by friends and family. Everyone is praying for him. I close my eyes and pray every so often throughout the day.
I really wanted to hold his hand, but I was afraid that it might hurt. I didn't know what to say, though I have so much I want to. I just didn't want him to hear me cry, I don't think it will help. He needs positive feelings, all I do is cry and cry. I never really knew him. But what I know is that he is an exceptional guy. I kept looking back... Working with him and how we would talk about everything. We'd bitch about this guy and that. He'd go take food for me, yogurt I really loved. He gave me chocolates. He loved playing Cher in the container. I passed him extra safety glasses cos his shattered. The first time I met him was in the office, and my mum made me work with him. I think he's the hardest working chap in that office. He helped me reach for the files on the top shelf, lay them out on the table then boxed them with me. I really enjoyed working with him. He was really... exceptional.
He protected me from weird men onboard. He covered up for me when I went to the rec room after lunch. He messaged me when he knew I was upset I got banned from going onboard. He was so sincere. And I really appreciated it. I just don't think I thanked him enough. And now as he lays there... God, please be with him. I've never felt so much love... An entire family, friends, just so lovingly speaking to him. Please wake up. Surely, with so much love, anything is possible. Against all odds. Please, keep fighting. Keep fighting, cos we're all rooting for you.
It's made me realise so many things. And as confused as I am, I know what I want. I don't want to let go. I don't want to walk away. But you make it so hard for me ):
The silence isn't so bad, till I look at my hands and feel sad. Cos the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly..
I just went to his FB. And I saw messages posted by friends and family. Everyone is praying for him. I close my eyes and pray every so often throughout the day.
I really wanted to hold his hand, but I was afraid that it might hurt. I didn't know what to say, though I have so much I want to. I just didn't want him to hear me cry, I don't think it will help. He needs positive feelings, all I do is cry and cry. I never really knew him. But what I know is that he is an exceptional guy. I kept looking back... Working with him and how we would talk about everything. We'd bitch about this guy and that. He'd go take food for me, yogurt I really loved. He gave me chocolates. He loved playing Cher in the container. I passed him extra safety glasses cos his shattered. The first time I met him was in the office, and my mum made me work with him. I think he's the hardest working chap in that office. He helped me reach for the files on the top shelf, lay them out on the table then boxed them with me. I really enjoyed working with him. He was really... exceptional.
He protected me from weird men onboard. He covered up for me when I went to the rec room after lunch. He messaged me when he knew I was upset I got banned from going onboard. He was so sincere. And I really appreciated it. I just don't think I thanked him enough. And now as he lays there... God, please be with him. I've never felt so much love... An entire family, friends, just so lovingly speaking to him. Please wake up. Surely, with so much love, anything is possible. Against all odds. Please, keep fighting. Keep fighting, cos we're all rooting for you.
It's made me realise so many things. And as confused as I am, I know what I want. I don't want to let go. I don't want to walk away. But you make it so hard for me ):
The silence isn't so bad, till I look at my hands and feel sad. Cos the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly..
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Dear God
I pray he will be alright. I really pray with all my heart. Please God.
Life can be so unfair. Why do bad things happen to the best of people? I really wonder.
I couldn't stop crying. I'm lucky to have one person in my life who will never let me down. My brother. He held me when I cried. And I've never felt so comforted in my life. I know we take people we have in our lives for granted. And this really has to stop. I don't want to let go...
It's so hard to be strong at times. Now I know I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Feels like I've been breaking down too many times these few days. It's really taking a toll on me. I feel so tired ): I keep trying... Trying to be ok. I tell myself that I'm feeling swell, but I know I'm such a fool. It's tiring to pretend everything is ok when it really isn't. Do you know how it feels like to feel sadness so strong it breaks your heart? The pain is agonising. Tears are words the heart can't express.
This is me. Now you know...
You call me "no love". But I love with every beat of my heart, you just don't know it...
Please God,
I want this pain to stop.
Life can be so unfair. Why do bad things happen to the best of people? I really wonder.
I couldn't stop crying. I'm lucky to have one person in my life who will never let me down. My brother. He held me when I cried. And I've never felt so comforted in my life. I know we take people we have in our lives for granted. And this really has to stop. I don't want to let go...
It's so hard to be strong at times. Now I know I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Feels like I've been breaking down too many times these few days. It's really taking a toll on me. I feel so tired ): I keep trying... Trying to be ok. I tell myself that I'm feeling swell, but I know I'm such a fool. It's tiring to pretend everything is ok when it really isn't. Do you know how it feels like to feel sadness so strong it breaks your heart? The pain is agonising. Tears are words the heart can't express.
This is me. Now you know...
You call me "no love". But I love with every beat of my heart, you just don't know it...
Please God,
I want this pain to stop.
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