Take a breath

It's been a stressful week.

As Johnny said : I just want to get the next week over and done with...Why can't schools be for friends and cca? Dammit.

Good question. Dumb answer: Life isn't all fun and games. WELL, not a dumb answer. Just a fact we gotta face up to.

Today I went to LIFE again. My kid was Pravin today. What a bright boy. He makes me smile. I'm glad I'm actually making a difference in someone else's life. It's a wonderful feeling. =)

I "loned" at Lot1 library for 2 hours or so reading my GP Environment package. I didn't get much done. I was practically falling asleep and my eyes kept watering, my eyesight getting worse by the second. Aww dammit. =( Like it's not bad enough. I'm definitely going for Lasik. I can't wait for the day when I can wake up and see the world oh-so clearly. Only when you're older you realise that you really gotta take care of your body and your health and your eyesight too. AHHHH!!!

Met Jia Juan at about 3. She taught me some acronyms for econs and easier ways to remember some math formulas. So I'm really satisfied. Cos at least I've learned something today. Probably more than I learn during those totally crappy math lectures. =( We talked about life. It was nice to see her again. She always cheers me up, gets my mind off all the pandemonium. It's nice. =)

Yesterday, I went to East coast for a seafood dinner. I don't even like seafood. -.- I was allergic to it before. Like when I was much younger. I've grown out of it but I still don't like it! I just ate a bit of lobster and prawns and like a spoonful of crab. I just ate lots of chilli kangkong. I swear...kangkong is the best vegetable on earth though you tend to choke on it easily. Drank alot of green tea. After that was Mac 24 hours drive-thru for ice cream. I fed my mum her sundae while she drove. Of course it was all melted. And she bought one extra sundae for who knows what reason. Gave it to Toa Payoh grandma but I think it's too cold for her la. She's only got one tooth left. OH! She fell while getting out of the car. So scary! Everything was in slow motion. I almost died. Like...NOOOO!!! But too late. She fell. Luckily it was quite grassy. I held her arm all the while after that while walking. But I told my mum...If she fell I'd probably fall on top of her and make everything worse.

Ok. This is too much info but... I didn't wash my hair yesterday. And my classmates should know why that is INSANELY gross. I ran 2km. And people thought I took a shower. NO. It's my perspiration. Heh... Don't get my wrong. I wanted to wash my hair after getting home but it was almost midnight and my mum forbid me to. Being a mummy's girl I listened to her. But I got my maid to change the pillow cover already. =) Another irritating thing: I ran with Jennifer and I swear my timing would have been over a minute faster had I finished the run. DARN IT.

I like Eugene Chua. He's damn cool. He almost knocked me down with his white Civic. I was walking with py and he just swerved towards us. Then we saw him laughing. Haha. And his passenger too. Hmmm. He got pissed at us for taking our time again. So he ripped the paper with our timings and all. And went : Poor Madelene and Peishi ran their 2.4 twice already blahblahblah... Ya. It was quite upsetting la. Our class always pisses our teachers off. I managed to get my gold. But it's not good enough seriously. I don't like it. I've stopped fencing for a year and everything has dropped at least a grade.

Ok. Hmmm.

To Function Graph g(x),
Thank you for remembering my birthday one day too late. =) I didn't leave you out la. The thanks was on my mind. LOL.

Now back to work. Mummy forgive me for all the tests I will be failing. =(

Simpsons =D

I forgot Deyong! Haha. How can I forget my favourite OGL?! Deyong... You look like Homer =D But skinnier and less bald. Yay! I just complimented you. =)

Had squash today. Had fun with that ladder thingy... Our coordination so much better now. But many of us have blisters now. My socks too thin. And... I BOUGHT A NEW RACKET! It's a Prince o3 Hybrid Light. Heh... I'm only spending this money cos I have the money AT THE MOMENT. FYI: I DO NOT have a steady cash flow!

Just finished my GP essay. Gonna do chinese now =) Yay again! I am proud to announce that I have never ponned chinese class and I've handed in ALL my work. This is the first time ever I'm so guai. In secondary school, I owed my teacher like every single baozhangbaodao and evreything else. I am proud of myself.

Time to study real hard. The library is a condusive place to study. The cubicles, not the other tables. Yup. Ok chinese time! I hope to lower my 2.4 timing next time. Or I'll be pissed again =(

another 365 days older

Ah yes. 5/5. C'mon, it's so damn easy to remember, ain't it? HA.

I have to thank many people now.
alicia, peiyi, yixian, jiajuan, justin, junsiew, maureen, natalie, raphael, farrina, kenny, steph, canida, andrea, izabel, zach, dion, jiawei, carlyn, melissa, tiffany, jiayi, gabriel, peishi and all those who bought the cake for me. I know there are 12 of you but I cant recall all. And you guys embarrassed me in the canteen la. Sing so loud. =( But still. Thanks a million. Next person's birthday we can use cake to bribe the chinese teacher again. Haha. If there's anyone I've forgotten to mention, I'm sorry...But I left you out on purpose! MUAHAHAHA!

I think cards are the sweetest things. Just a short little note that tells you you're on someone's mind, that someone treasures you, that you are a friend. i received a few and I have to say they are really touching. =) Even Raphael < this name reminds me of the teenage mutant ninja turtles =) He wanted to meet me last night to pass it to me. And I have to say his card is quite hilarious. "I hope you smile for the next 365 days so that your dimple will not go to waste." Haha. Sweet la.

Then there was Dion, Zach and Jiawei's smses. I received 3, one after another. The first read "happy", the second read "birthday" and the last read " to you". Zach says it took them "alot of creativity, teamwork, timing and accuracy" and also 1/1000 of their valuable smses too! It's funny how a handful of the smses I received said "happy birthday sexay". This word "sexay" is so reminiscent of the orientation days. =) And Canida still answers the phone with "hey sexay!".

Hmmm. Alicia owes me a big bear hug and MUACKS MUACKS! Hehe.
Oh and Marcus. Sweet talker! More beautiful eh? LOL! I almost died when you said that. But it's ok. You have good taste i must say. Haha. okok better not bu yao lian. HEY! Chinese again! Damn my chinese is good =D

I'm gonna spend all the moola. =) Firstly, I think I shall use the money mummy gave me to buy a nice Prince o3 racket. Maybe... Shall ask Coach tomorrow. =) Whoa squash is so fun. But I'm so tired. My 2.4 sucks like hell. I'm gonna rerun again. I shall keep running till I'm satisfied! Next, hmmm. See first. Standard la. Only can buy clothes, bag, shoes blahblahblah. Ah new asics! =)

Yay! Econs test is postponed. That leaves me more time to do my GPP "The Puppet Dance" and my GP essay. Wow my handwriting rocks! I just suddenly realised after looking at my incomplete essay. There's really alot of work to do. =( I'm so freaking scared of the math test. I don't like "0". I remember getting a 0 for vlee's test before. But that was ok since alot of people got 0 also. I'm not trying to say I want more people to get zero so I can feel better. But...AH! Nvm. I deserve to fail this test. I haven't been doing enough math. In fact, it is the subject that I slack the most in other than physics. I got back my physics test today and I got 6/20. Lol. That's expected la. Physics has always been my worst subject other than chinese. Ah no! Chinese oral is coming up. Woo scary!

Ok I know the above content can cause emotional and psychological distress to some people. Better stop talking about work le. =) CHILL.

Please wear your black specs. Thank you =)

I feel like listening to BSB. I'm so obsessed.

Take my hand. Take my life. Just don't take forever...

TY TY!

Thanks for all the warm wishes. I shall elaborate further later in the week. It's late! And I have to run tomorrow. =(

Much love,
Maddie =)

Procrastinating

Yes. I am procrastinating.

Let's see... Hmmm... I have chemistry test on Monday. Econs essay test on Wednesday. I have yet to start on my environment package. I am so screwed for math. I know nuts bout physics. Yeah. And etc.

Today for 2.4, I ran 2.0. Ah. You ask why. The answer is simple. Some people can't count. No no, not me. Haha. Some other people. I knew it, I was right. I only ran 5 rounds but ps stopped running, and ec asked me why I was still running. Like duh! Cos it's only been 5 rounds. And I thought I was some idiot. -.- Angry. Means I have to run another 2.4 on Tuesday with the guys. Darn! Haiya. Napha sucks la... My fitness has gone down the drain. Angry!

There's interact Newspaper collection tomorrow. Haha. 9am-4pm. Waste more time. And I took the exco form today during meeting. Imagine. Madelene Poon, President of Interact Club! HAHAHA. I'm not saying I'm not capable of the responsibility, but have you ever seen such a misfit? Interact president who can't interact with others? More like president of the dao-ist club? Everytime py's friend says hi to me and I say hi or nod or smile, she says I give her the dao face again. Like that's just me la. What do you want me to do? Haha. Dao-ist. Sometimes la. Can't deny also.

Walking to Buona Vista MRT, I started singing "I'm getting over you" and NA looked back. I think py was quite embarrassed but, haha, I like to embarrass people cos I'm not embarrassed to embarrass myself. Comprehend? I sang "I'm getting over you, whoa. I'm getting over you most of the time. If I say it like I mean it then maybe I'll believe it like it's true. I'm getting over you!!!!"

On the train, we wasted 3 minutes of our lives trying to make letters with one hand. For example, trying to make a "G" with one hand. Try it. It's not easy. She tried to make "MOMO" and I taught her a good way to do that. =) Yes. Then she said "We've just wasted 3 minutes of our lives. HAHAHA. (HOHOHO?)"

Oh! Some councillor told me he likes my nerdy purple specs. =)

Yeah yeah. I'm quite happy. =D

May Day

Ah crap. 2 posts ago, I boasted that I could sleep till words don't rhyme. Yet, this morning, my mummy dragged me out of bed using emotional blackmail. Of course I did put up a fight saying I had lots of work to do, my exams are coming etc. But my mummy kept pleading and saying "I'm dying..." Then I was like, "Ask Jeremy la. That lazy boy has nothing to do yadayadayada." But my mummy says I have to run the company one day so I gotta do it. Fine. I got up at 9 (way too early) just to go to the freaking office. SIGH.

We had tim sum for breakfast at Crystal Jade at CWP. As usual, I ate too much. And I'm wondering... Who the hell eats dessert in the morning? Me? Yes, I do. Next time anyone goes to Crystal Jade, try the black pepper beef or something. It's really good. And the scallop porridge. =)

Ok so at the office, no air con. 13th storey. Thankfully there was a breeze.

When you're alone in the toilets of UIC building, the silence is deafening. You start to imagine all kinds of things like ghosts behind you. Creepy. I always get chills.

Finished working at about 4. I saw this very bad accident. One car was overturned at the curb and the other car was totally crushed in the front. Was trying to get a good look at whether there was anyone trapped in the overturned car. Whoa scary. =( Then again, my mum is the pro at accidents. She has gotten into 2 in under a year. And the most recent one cost her $21,000 in damages. Thank goodness she bought a new car. Mazda 6 Sport. =) White. =) And she bid for 2145. Wasted a thousand dollars on that.

All the tests are coming up. I'm gonna fail terribly. Especially math. Ah! I miss Vlee la. He's like the best math teacher I ever had. Last time I even failed math in lower sec, like F9s. Then since Vlee started teaching me A Math in sec3, my E math could finally get A1. A math obviously O levels get A1 la. Vlee what...

I need tuition I think. Sometimes I really don't know what's going on. ARGH. This is so sickening.

Silence

I'll bet two years
I'll bet one year
I'll bet those years
You won't be here

I guess I'll keep
I guess you'll keep
Every memory
Sadly we may never be

I'll bet my tears
I'll bet your tears
I'll bet those tears
Over time could disappear

Wait a minute I have more to say
And I care if you're listening to me

I need you more than you'll ever know
Still do, willing to let it show
I need a minute just to get to you
I feel like I might be getting through
Come over and say nothing
Silence is everything

I know, I know
Feelings can sh0w
If you let go
It must be told
That I've got a hold
On what we used to have

I will forgive if you forget
All the things we said
Let's accept it

I need you more than you'll ever know
Still do, willing to let it show
I need a minute just to get to you
I feel like I might be getting through
Come over and say nothing
Silence is everything