Last paper tomorrow. SHIT. I'm not prepared, obviously. Just when I'm starting to get a hang on it, it's too late! Damn. Just don't be as hard as 08 paper please ): 07 was still ok. Sigh! What time is it now? 2140. I got another 2 hours to recap all the 300 odd questions I've attempted(and some failed). I see a lot of repeated questions from the prelim papers. I hope some of those come out. Just sub the numbers inside and wham!
I'm moving soon! Hopefully to Fraser Suites. Then I can have access to pool and gym. Can work out everyday to get my pre-A body back. AH sometimes I feel so out of shape. So annoying ):
Ok la. Now's not the time to be annoyed by these kinda things. It's time to be annoyed by my favourite subject. Wish me luck. I sure need it.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Physics frenzy
Studying at RP library alone today. I love it here. Not too quiet, not too noisy. Not too cold, not too warm. Not too empty, not too crowded. And there's natural sunlight peeking through the glass windows behind me. Yes, it is my favourite library! If AC's library was this awesome, I wouldn't mind travelling to school everyday. Having tuition here later too. Too lazy to go home. Just had Subway lunch with Jeremy. I think my hair smells like Subway already. Haha.
Okay back to studying. How I love just talking to myself (:
Stay strong! (:
Okay back to studying. How I love just talking to myself (:
Stay strong! (:
I love the library
For hope is but the dream of those that wake.
I can't wait till Monday is over. There are many things I want to do. But first, I want to take time off for myself. Give myself time to sleep. I'm still waking up relatively earlier, compared to SOME PEOPLE. Haha. Sleeping after midnight and waking up at 9. I wake up at 7 and I literally force myself back to sleep. I woke up at 10:44am yesterday. My gosh, it felt good. I went to Woodlands library to mug alone and read some books. Oh man, I love reading. I'm going to the library often after Monday to read silently in the corner beside that potted plant. It shall be my haven (:
Meanwhile, been trying physics. Hard la. I feel so frustrated with myself, but I really want to try. Shit. Why didn't I give it my best before? Now I have no one to blame but myself. I feel demoralized each time I can't do the bloody paper. I'm giving myself a hard time and I don't handle stress well. So yes, I feel like turd -.-
Ghim taught me physics today. Very patiently. I was surprised. He should seriously consider being a tuition teacher. Well, bless him. He has really helped me a lot these pass 2 weeks. And he has also offered me a lot of encouragement in terms of econs and chemistry. At least he found it hard. Means nj people also find it hard la. At least I still got hope then. Haha. Thanks.
Tomorrow shall go RP to study after breakfast and have lunch with my beloved brother. Subway here I come! I seriously cannot get sick of it (: Then there's tuition. Sigh. I hope all this will prepare me just a little bit for Monday. It's like major cramming. 2 years worth of crap all in 5 days? Well, at least I kinda understand Superposition and circuits now. He is seriously better than our physics teacher. Like a gazillion times. Sometimes the teacher you have can really make or break you. And although they like to say that you are fully accountable for your studies but how do you expect me to do well when I have such substandard resources. She doesn't even turn up for consultations. I cannot accept that. But at the same time I also pity her. So I don't know what to say now. But life isn't easy, it wasn't meant to be. You have to work hard to get what you want. And if you ask me now if I think I can pass, I'd say that I don't deserve to pass. Because I haven't put in the effort. And I can't expect things to work out perfectly for me all the time. It isn't O levels. Not doing your work in secondary school and just reading the textbook one day before the paper can still get you a B3. Decent. Try this crap now and see what you get. The A level paper 1 isn't easy either. I tried the 08 paper and compared to schools' prelim papers, it's really hell. But shall not give up too easily. I'm not one to. Or rather I want to believe that I'm not.
Was having a talk with my mum about the future and what I want to do with my career. Of course everyone wants to do what they would enjoy doing. And I would really want to do something either in fashion or food. I am dead serious. I know a lot of people think that it's not viable and there's no guarantee in these industries but I sincerely believe I can do it and do it well. I have my mum's support so what else do I really need? I really want to do it! Do you think I'm crazy? The future isn't far away and it's really about time I start thinking seriously what I wanna do. I don't want to end up in the army like what my Godma asked me to do. She said people like me will excel in the army. Yeah... Haha. Actually I don't know either. When I was really young, I wanted to serve NS cos my Godma was then a Captain and I thought it was so cool. I used to go to SAFTI's Open House every year or something. And I got to fire the SAR 21, ride in a tank, sit in some plane. Was so cool. I thought that was the life for me. Haha. But now, though I still like the tough ass stuff, I guess what my mum said was right. I can't always be a tomboy. So JIA JUAN, if you are reading this, one day you will become more feminine. Haha. And I will make you wear a mini skirt one day I swear! (:
Alright, back to studying. Shall finish another paper. Goodnight!
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
I can't wait till Monday is over. There are many things I want to do. But first, I want to take time off for myself. Give myself time to sleep. I'm still waking up relatively earlier, compared to SOME PEOPLE. Haha. Sleeping after midnight and waking up at 9. I wake up at 7 and I literally force myself back to sleep. I woke up at 10:44am yesterday. My gosh, it felt good. I went to Woodlands library to mug alone and read some books. Oh man, I love reading. I'm going to the library often after Monday to read silently in the corner beside that potted plant. It shall be my haven (:
Meanwhile, been trying physics. Hard la. I feel so frustrated with myself, but I really want to try. Shit. Why didn't I give it my best before? Now I have no one to blame but myself. I feel demoralized each time I can't do the bloody paper. I'm giving myself a hard time and I don't handle stress well. So yes, I feel like turd -.-
Ghim taught me physics today. Very patiently. I was surprised. He should seriously consider being a tuition teacher. Well, bless him. He has really helped me a lot these pass 2 weeks. And he has also offered me a lot of encouragement in terms of econs and chemistry. At least he found it hard. Means nj people also find it hard la. At least I still got hope then. Haha. Thanks.
Tomorrow shall go RP to study after breakfast and have lunch with my beloved brother. Subway here I come! I seriously cannot get sick of it (: Then there's tuition. Sigh. I hope all this will prepare me just a little bit for Monday. It's like major cramming. 2 years worth of crap all in 5 days? Well, at least I kinda understand Superposition and circuits now. He is seriously better than our physics teacher. Like a gazillion times. Sometimes the teacher you have can really make or break you. And although they like to say that you are fully accountable for your studies but how do you expect me to do well when I have such substandard resources. She doesn't even turn up for consultations. I cannot accept that. But at the same time I also pity her. So I don't know what to say now. But life isn't easy, it wasn't meant to be. You have to work hard to get what you want. And if you ask me now if I think I can pass, I'd say that I don't deserve to pass. Because I haven't put in the effort. And I can't expect things to work out perfectly for me all the time. It isn't O levels. Not doing your work in secondary school and just reading the textbook one day before the paper can still get you a B3. Decent. Try this crap now and see what you get. The A level paper 1 isn't easy either. I tried the 08 paper and compared to schools' prelim papers, it's really hell. But shall not give up too easily. I'm not one to. Or rather I want to believe that I'm not.
Was having a talk with my mum about the future and what I want to do with my career. Of course everyone wants to do what they would enjoy doing. And I would really want to do something either in fashion or food. I am dead serious. I know a lot of people think that it's not viable and there's no guarantee in these industries but I sincerely believe I can do it and do it well. I have my mum's support so what else do I really need? I really want to do it! Do you think I'm crazy? The future isn't far away and it's really about time I start thinking seriously what I wanna do. I don't want to end up in the army like what my Godma asked me to do. She said people like me will excel in the army. Yeah... Haha. Actually I don't know either. When I was really young, I wanted to serve NS cos my Godma was then a Captain and I thought it was so cool. I used to go to SAFTI's Open House every year or something. And I got to fire the SAR 21, ride in a tank, sit in some plane. Was so cool. I thought that was the life for me. Haha. But now, though I still like the tough ass stuff, I guess what my mum said was right. I can't always be a tomboy. So JIA JUAN, if you are reading this, one day you will become more feminine. Haha. And I will make you wear a mini skirt one day I swear! (:
Alright, back to studying. Shall finish another paper. Goodnight!
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Monday, November 23, 2009
It's not over, till it's over
Today was the 'last paper'. I'm so 'free' now. So 'free' that I'm here talking to myself again after a 2 month hiatus. But I don't care. Haha. Ok I'm like so retard talking to myself. That's sad.
I'm having conflicting emotions now. I don't know if I should be happy. A lot of the papers sucked, like hell. And I really don't know where I stand in this entire cohort. If I find it hard, how about others? I'm not talking about RJ or HC. Neither do I claim to be anywhere close to their standard. But...ARGH! I don't know. I keep saying "I don't know". And I'm really not joking about considering retaking if I don't do well. I know I didn't give myself a fair chance at performing my best for the A's, unlike the O's. How I wasted the J1 year, I really regret it. But there's nothing I can do about it. So I really tried my best. If it's not enough, then that's too bad I guess. I know this isn't the fullest of my potential. And considering I picked up like ALL of last year's syllabus just this year, I've got to pat myself on the back. For goodness sake, I couldn't even do partial fractions last year la -.- Laugh and mock all you want, but it's the fact. So yes, I am proud of what I have accomplished. But I'm not proud of what I did last year. That's why I keep reminding my dear OG kids to study. There is seriously no time. 2 years passes so quickly, you just don't know what hit you till you're on the ground begging for mercy. Haha. Wow. What a long paragraph!
School is exciting, I must say. Although I'm not the biggest fan of it due to particular reasons, I think I will miss it. All the times py and I behave like typical girls. Haha. Yes! I behave like a typical girl sometimes. I'm sure there are people who don't know me and eavesdrop on our conversations and think "Such bimbos". Once Monday's paper is over, there will be no more entertaining people to enrich our lives. Oh man... I will miss those times. I will miss my classmates. Some. Haha. I will miss walking between classes and bumping into people ): I will miss making fun of py when her face turns red when she passes SOMEONE. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for 4p2 chalet! Although I probably won't be able to stay over, but still... I miss my class! If only I had a class like that in JC, I would have been so satisfied with my whole JC life. Not saying that our clique isn't as nice la. Just that it's not the entire class. And it's sad, considering how my AC life started so well with the OG. I've also got to know so many other people, especially during Orientation 09. It was the best experience I had in AC, and I'm happy I got to be part of it. The people were really nice, and my OG rocks. I made friends. Accomplishment. And I will never forget Adam and Victor's comment. But hey, they can't deny they enjoyed cheering with me, despite my height. Haha.
Argh I can't stand it. This post is way too long. And I shouldn't take H1 for granted. I shall attempt to do 2 MCQs per day at least for the next week. I seriously still believe I've got a hidden talent in physics. No joke. If I did my work, that is. But I don't. Never have, even in BP. Now I suffer. But it's okay. I make mistakes. But my attempts now are a testament to my attitude. Haha. I try.
You now have sorrow; but I will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you.
I'm having conflicting emotions now. I don't know if I should be happy. A lot of the papers sucked, like hell. And I really don't know where I stand in this entire cohort. If I find it hard, how about others? I'm not talking about RJ or HC. Neither do I claim to be anywhere close to their standard. But...ARGH! I don't know. I keep saying "I don't know". And I'm really not joking about considering retaking if I don't do well. I know I didn't give myself a fair chance at performing my best for the A's, unlike the O's. How I wasted the J1 year, I really regret it. But there's nothing I can do about it. So I really tried my best. If it's not enough, then that's too bad I guess. I know this isn't the fullest of my potential. And considering I picked up like ALL of last year's syllabus just this year, I've got to pat myself on the back. For goodness sake, I couldn't even do partial fractions last year la -.- Laugh and mock all you want, but it's the fact. So yes, I am proud of what I have accomplished. But I'm not proud of what I did last year. That's why I keep reminding my dear OG kids to study. There is seriously no time. 2 years passes so quickly, you just don't know what hit you till you're on the ground begging for mercy. Haha. Wow. What a long paragraph!
School is exciting, I must say. Although I'm not the biggest fan of it due to particular reasons, I think I will miss it. All the times py and I behave like typical girls. Haha. Yes! I behave like a typical girl sometimes. I'm sure there are people who don't know me and eavesdrop on our conversations and think "Such bimbos". Once Monday's paper is over, there will be no more entertaining people to enrich our lives. Oh man... I will miss those times. I will miss my classmates. Some. Haha. I will miss walking between classes and bumping into people ): I will miss making fun of py when her face turns red when she passes SOMEONE. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for 4p2 chalet! Although I probably won't be able to stay over, but still... I miss my class! If only I had a class like that in JC, I would have been so satisfied with my whole JC life. Not saying that our clique isn't as nice la. Just that it's not the entire class. And it's sad, considering how my AC life started so well with the OG. I've also got to know so many other people, especially during Orientation 09. It was the best experience I had in AC, and I'm happy I got to be part of it. The people were really nice, and my OG rocks. I made friends. Accomplishment. And I will never forget Adam and Victor's comment. But hey, they can't deny they enjoyed cheering with me, despite my height. Haha.
Argh I can't stand it. This post is way too long. And I shouldn't take H1 for granted. I shall attempt to do 2 MCQs per day at least for the next week. I seriously still believe I've got a hidden talent in physics. No joke. If I did my work, that is. But I don't. Never have, even in BP. Now I suffer. But it's okay. I make mistakes. But my attempts now are a testament to my attitude. Haha. I try.
You now have sorrow; but I will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
My saviour!
That girl is my saviour. She sure is. I feel really relieved and less stressed now. Was afraid I might have to go out and shop but now I can rest assured I have something to wear. And it will match g(x)'s. Ok so cheesy? No, so sweet. He will look very handsome in his blue Zara shirt and grey tie and I will be his best accessory. Or is it the other way round? Ok vice versa then (:
I have a feeling I had problem sleeping last night because Mark told me that AE didn't confirm the orders with him and the stuff might be OOS. I was anxious. Call me a typical girl but what if I had nothing to wear?! Haha. Ok. But I'm not typical.
I gotta thank Cass too. She helped me find that person. And gave me some very nice blogshops to look at. Phew!
Studied with Jia Wei today. Tried veggie patty sub today. It was GOOOOOD. It doesn't taste like veggie though. Think I might have it again soon. So good! Jia Wei said I'm not fat, nor skinny. I'm 'healthy' verbatim. Thanks ar... He is so slack la. But very determined. He is like the slack version of xy. Both don't like to give up on questions they can't solve initially. Sigh. Why can't I be like them? This holiday is really passing very quickly. It's already soon to be Friday and I haven't completed my 07 paper 1 and the pure math section of paper 2. And there are blanks in 08 paper. Haha. So xy can help me tomorrow. Ok, I guess I got to start mugging again. ):
Peiyi says Lee Min Ho is coming to Singapore soon. I told her to stake out at the airport. Haha. Ok la. I got hooked on the show really fast. It was just so amusing to look at LMH's hair. As for my brother, he was looking at the girls la. But I got to admit that Monkey was really pretty. And good personality. I like her. She looks like Denise Keller, only prettier. (:
Look at me procrastinating. I got an obsession with clothes that I will never buy. How I wish I were a model. I would steal a few pieces of clothes that I model. In fact, I think I would make a better model than some I've seen. Too bad I'm so short and have 'big' thighs (to me). Why are models so skinny? They don't have 'real' bodies. How many people are that skinny?! Not many. So why don't they let people with 'real' bodies model? Sigh. The irony of it all...
I have a feeling I had problem sleeping last night because Mark told me that AE didn't confirm the orders with him and the stuff might be OOS. I was anxious. Call me a typical girl but what if I had nothing to wear?! Haha. Ok. But I'm not typical.
I gotta thank Cass too. She helped me find that person. And gave me some very nice blogshops to look at. Phew!
Studied with Jia Wei today. Tried veggie patty sub today. It was GOOOOOD. It doesn't taste like veggie though. Think I might have it again soon. So good! Jia Wei said I'm not fat, nor skinny. I'm 'healthy' verbatim. Thanks ar... He is so slack la. But very determined. He is like the slack version of xy. Both don't like to give up on questions they can't solve initially. Sigh. Why can't I be like them? This holiday is really passing very quickly. It's already soon to be Friday and I haven't completed my 07 paper 1 and the pure math section of paper 2. And there are blanks in 08 paper. Haha. So xy can help me tomorrow. Ok, I guess I got to start mugging again. ):
Peiyi says Lee Min Ho is coming to Singapore soon. I told her to stake out at the airport. Haha. Ok la. I got hooked on the show really fast. It was just so amusing to look at LMH's hair. As for my brother, he was looking at the girls la. But I got to admit that Monkey was really pretty. And good personality. I like her. She looks like Denise Keller, only prettier. (:
Look at me procrastinating. I got an obsession with clothes that I will never buy. How I wish I were a model. I would steal a few pieces of clothes that I model. In fact, I think I would make a better model than some I've seen. Too bad I'm so short and have 'big' thighs (to me). Why are models so skinny? They don't have 'real' bodies. How many people are that skinny?! Not many. So why don't they let people with 'real' bodies model? Sigh. The irony of it all...
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Bye Bye Blackbird ):
Peiyi and I went to catch Public Enemies yesterday. Because of Johnny. He is really a good actor. We want to steal the movie poster (: It's a true story!
John Dillinger is a captivating and sweet bank robber who has a soft-spot for women. And the police are nitwits. The ending was really sad. Of course Johnny dies, betrayed by a friend. And the last words were "Tell Billie for me, "Bye bye Blackbird." Ok, I understand if you don't understand. That's why you should watch it. Then you will go..."Aww. That was so sweet." Then feel like crying. Especially to girls in love with Johnny Depp. Haha.
People need to watch this instead of nonsense like Revenge of the Fallen. Public Enemies and Ice Age 3! No offence. It's just personal preference.
I am so happy to pass my first ever math test. Thank you to everyone who has helped me. (:
I just want to let you know that I am behind you a hundred per cent. I don't blame you. It must have been difficult.
John Dillinger is a captivating and sweet bank robber who has a soft-spot for women. And the police are nitwits. The ending was really sad. Of course Johnny dies, betrayed by a friend. And the last words were "Tell Billie for me, "Bye bye Blackbird." Ok, I understand if you don't understand. That's why you should watch it. Then you will go..."Aww. That was so sweet." Then feel like crying. Especially to girls in love with Johnny Depp. Haha.
People need to watch this instead of nonsense like Revenge of the Fallen. Public Enemies and Ice Age 3! No offence. It's just personal preference.
I am so happy to pass my first ever math test. Thank you to everyone who has helped me. (:
I just want to let you know that I am behind you a hundred per cent. I don't blame you. It must have been difficult.
Monday, July 13, 2009
SLAM!
OK. I don't know who passerby is, but all I have to say is... Whatever. People have different opinions. However, mine is clearly stated. And passerby TWO, thanks. That's exactly what I thought about the whole issue too. I might not like Michael Bay's work so much but...Oh well. He's got a point. She...should be more appreciative and respectful.
On a different note: Peiyi! Remember... Today you saw someone. It's a good day. Keep on it on D.L! (:
Sorry to my beloved g(x). If I passed you the flu. I know it's tough for you, but hang in there! JIAYOU!!! 3 weeks down already (:
On a different note: Peiyi! Remember... Today you saw someone. It's a good day. Keep on it on D.L! (:
Sorry to my beloved g(x). If I passed you the flu. I know it's tough for you, but hang in there! JIAYOU!!! 3 weeks down already (:
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