29/9

I think Stats quiz was tricky. It probably wasn't as easy as it seemed. Otherwise, I wouldn't have finished so quickly. I am not expecting an A from it. I was the first to leave the seminar room, was getting hungry too! And growling stomach was embarrassing! Met up with Hann Khee for lunch at Raffles City. Food was nice! YUM. Then we headed to National Library (omg, my first time!) to "mug". Couldn't really find a place to study in the library though, so we went to Hanis and studied, drank coffee and yingyang. It's a super nice place to study. Conducive. Nice to just chill too! Think I might go there more often (:

Studying hard for TWC midterms on Saturday! That's Hann Khee's head. You can see that he's really really into his BGS readings! SIGH. Can't imagine next sem. Time for BGS. It's like reading one GP package per week or something!
TWC... I think the questions I posed today for class part were goooood! HA! Smart :P
I really wanted to go home straight after TWC. Last night, I got about 3 hours of sleep. So throughout the day, I was feeling really crappy and tired. But somehow, Hann Khee managed to use his power of persuasion to get me to stay for training. Maybe it was just guilt trip... I don't know! Anyway, I had to walk pass the T-junction to get to the station, and I saw the gloves and pads all laid out... So tempting. Anyway, really in need of a workout to perk me up! Muay Thai is awesome when it comes to destressing. And my sparring partner today... Oh man, I like her. We both all out roundhouse kick and just uppercut, elbow each other without reservations. Damn fun... Hmmm... Need to work on my right roundhouse. Not twisting the hips enough. I guess cos I'm left master foot? I don't know! And shadow boxing... Looks much cooler than it actually is. Right now, still feeling awkward punching and kicking air. But one day I am gonna be like the seniors! And I will look cool too. Haha! Check out my freaking blood blister, which I am actually very proud of!

Cool eh? :D Barefoot training. Pretty good. But my skin's gotta get thicker, if not it's gonna hurt like crap. I suffered walking home just now!
I think I am physically much... fitter than most girls. They probably haven't gotten much exercise in awhile I'm guessing. Damn proud of my sprints just now during warm up (managed to lap some girls) cos I kept up with the guys! WOOHOO! HAPPY. But technique wise... I think I need more practice. I better stop missing so many sessions! Friday, I will probably head down to Hilltop with Jess, and next week maybe 3 times if possible. I am relatively free next week since all my midterms are over this week! Just LTB and TWC individual assignment to chiong! Great news... We got Rulang! :D Bad news... E-waste companies. Don't this people ever go to work?!

Food journal 29/9
Breakfast:
Rolled oats with peanut butter and banana

Snack:
1 Mr Bean red bean pancake

Lunch:

Terriyaki chicken, beef, egg and soup from the teppanyaki stall. Pretty worth the $6.80 I paid for it. Shiok!

Snack:

Coffeeeeeeeeeeee
Ham and cheese sandwich with tomato, from Hanis!


Dinner:

After training... not much choice left. Meiji chocolate milk and some strawberry yogurt from 7-11.

I think I've been having good food recently!



SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK! I love my food (:

26/9

I think I am gonna KO soon. So tired from studying, and workout just now. Really. Damn. Tired.
Shit, no life. Just biz law.
My mind... is just filled with the Hong Kong Fir Approach. Innominate terms. UCTA. Misrepresentation. ARGH! Sickening. I like biz law, but this is way too much. Day 3 of non-stop biz law. I have to start on Stats NOW!
I need caffeine to perk me up ):

Food journal 26/9
Breakfast:
Muesli with oatmilk
I can't get enough of this. So addictive. YUMMY.

2nd meal:


Yes, that's tuna. Yes, I don't eat mayo. In my attempt to cut out bread as much as possible, I am reduced to eating tuna, plain. It's still nice though a tad dry.
Pomelo. I guess I will be eating more of it in the days to come. Have 2 in my house, just waiting to be eaten (:

Lunch:

Egg in wholemeal wrap. Topped with lots of pepper! Nice. I'm out of wraps! Maybe it's a good thing.
1 glass oatmilk

Snack:
2 wholewheat hazelnut crackers

Dinner:


Tofu, prawns, fresh kidney beans, carrots and cabbage. I told Aunty to never ever put potatoes into my soup again. I shall not eat potatoes! Godpa baked pumpkins today too. Rosemary and olive oil included. Heaven!
I also saw pizza from Modesto's. Apparently Godpa ordered 7 boxes for lunch today. Luckily I didn't go over to Grandma's house today. If not sure sin. But I did pick off the beef from one slice of pizza.

Supper:

Golden kiwi (:
Peppermint tea. Apparently it helps relax muscles. I hope so! Good for digestion, helps with cramps too! I shall try the next time I have cramps man. Haha. Hope I don't get cramps though! Cramps suck.

Workout of the day!
Ok, did about 15 minutes of ab work. From Insanity. I really CANNOT TAKE IT. Think I am gonna ache tomorrow.
2.4km run
8 X 20s/10s squats
Attempted to run at max effort, but, ouch. Stitch. And I think I consumed too much fluid today, so when I ran, I felt so full of water. And I keep wanting to pee! ): Haven't ran in awhile too. Need to run more! Sprints soon! Can't wait (:

Muay Thai outing to Sentosa and Night Safari! Wonder if I should go. Maybe just go for one.
I replied Kelvin. Jess and I wanna train at Hilltop gym and take part in our first competition in January. I am gonna spend my November and December training hard! Exciting (:

Ok, I guess it's time for some Stats, then off to bed!

I miss someone! BOOHOO. Sad, no one to talk to. Feel so loner again :P


The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

So true...

26/9

I can't wait for mid term break! I wanna go back to sleeping early, and waking up a little later. Right now, I'm sleeping at 1 or 2am more than thrice a week. It sucks! The bed just feels so good, especially when my body is perpetually nice and sore from workouts. ARGH. Really wanna sleep. It's already 26/9, 0145 hours. OMG. Biz law. ZZZ...

Today I went to Godma's house. I got a room to study with Izabel. I like it when I am around people with a common objective.
Ah, kids are noisy! But it doesn't mean I don't like them. I just don't like rascals! My child will never be like that. I was a good child ok! My mummy says I was the best. Never gave any trouble. I didn't even cry when I fell off the bed and my nose bled. Lol. Ok...



Not too many mooncakes this year. Cos mummy only bought 5 boxes this time. I think last year had thrice the amount! I forbid her to buy any more! So unfair, always she buying. HMPH!
Lesser options for me too. Which is good! I think I ate a total of one whole mooncake. I just love snowskin mooncakes. And these with rum, champagne or brandy inside are damn good! I like! But my favourite is the yam one, with the flakey skin, which we didn't get this year. Maybe next year then! EWWW! 3 boxes of durian mooncakes! I took a tiny little bite from Jeremy's. I still don't like it. It smells like diesel. Durian breath is gross. Haha. Ok la, the durian in this mooncake tastes better than others I have "tasted". Less like petrol :P

Ok, I really need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep! I got so many pimples. I think I look like Pikachu now with 2 pimples on my cheek. SHIT. Happens when I don't get enough sleep ):
I have a facial appointment later at 2pm. Gonna enjoy it!


We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us that we don't take time to enjoy where we are.

Goodnight! (:

24/9

BIZLAW BIZLAW BIZLAW BIZLAW. All day, Biz Law. Tomorrow, Biz Law. Sunday, Biz Law. SHIT. It's a damn open book test. Why am I studying so much?! I need to start on Stats.

Food journal 24/9
Breakfast:

Muesli with oatmilk and banana
Gonna have this more often. Damn nice.

Meal #2:

Toast with scrambled egg. I can't resist the ketchup sometimes. Ok, will make the effort to stop. Sugar and sodium. Too much.

Snack:

Peach and mango yogurt. I wanna replace these with Greek yogurt soon! Greek yogurt, mixed with peanut butter to create a dip for fresh fruits! Sounds good, doesn't it? :D

Snack:
Nuts, dried mango strips
SUGAR. Not good. I need unsweetened ones soon.
1 cup coffee (to stay awake)

Dinner:


Broccoli and mushroom. If that looks like leftover soup, it's because it is! Just that I dumped prawns into it. Still, as yummy today as it was yesterday!

Indulgence:
A few spoonfuls of fried rice. Yes, I consider rice an indulgence!
1 cream cracker
I hope I don't start eating cake again later :/

I really wanted to go for a run/sprint today. But the ground's really wet, and I am not comfortable running like that. Last time I did that I almost fell a couple of times. Not good. And leg gets wet whenever I go through puddles, which I do not like!
Insanity... For those who don't mind working out in a pool of your own sweat. And... Swearing keeps you going!

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I don't know if you can see this... But that's just a small area of sweat. I almost slipped on my sweat a few times just now :/
But doesn't it feel good? I really really enjoy it. DIG DEEPER! I feel stronger already :D To health and fitness! And the added bonus: A wonderfully toned, athletic body! YES!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY?!

They are not picking up the freaking phone!!! I am so pissed. I really don't feel like going down, but looks like I'll have to some time next week. CRAP LA.

Horrible night. I fell asleep praying and woke up an hour later at 2 plus, only to start sneezing and sneezing for the next hour. Do you have any idea how tiring it is to sneeze?! SIGH. I am gonna take a nap later.

It's a new day. Time to "mug" biz law, then Stats. All the best Maddie.


Some people say that I have an attitude- Maybe I do. But I think that you have to. You have to believe in yourself when no one else does- that makes you a winner right there.

23/9

We were able to get Beyond Social Services to agree on our project. I never thought I would ever return back to the center. We will definitely be doing a run there. But we really hope we will be able to get a primary school tomorrow. Don't think I will go for the visits. Anyway, I need to try to contact these e-waste companies tomorrow. And maybe go to primary schools in Woodlands area if there's no luck in the West.
I think we need to get the morale up. It's starting to get to me... Meanwhile, I was really trying my best to keep the energy up just now, even though it's really hard for me to do so too. Some people need to try harder too. I really see a lack of effort.

I need to get started with studying for tests next week. 3 tests. Daunting.
Firstly, I don't know what Prof expects from biz law. How to answer the case?! I need a sample ):
Stats... I just need to practice on more questions. Stats isn't difficult. It's just boring. Lack of interest = lack of results!
TWC. Should be fine. I hope. Test is on a Saturday. Absolutely hate going to school on the weekends.

Should I go to Godma's house for Mid-Autumn festival celebration? I think I need to study. And if I go, I will end up eating mooncakes, which I really don't want to. I see the first few boxes of mooncakes at home already. Damn. I've been eating way too much and not working out enough this week. Just stressed and all my time spent on studying this whole week/projects. At midnight, I ate a slice of cake! And I wasn't even hungry. Just stressed. Guess I can be an emotional eater sometimes. But it's also not good to deprive yourself. Sometimes, I should just indulge. Or I'll end up bingeing.

Food journal 23/9
Breakfast:
Weetbix with oatmilk, banana and almonds
Coffee during LTB

Lunch:
YTF
It's really cheap with the institution card at Kopitiam. $2.80 for 7 pieces.

Snack:
Tuna sandwich

Dinner:

Cabbage, tofu, mushroom, carrots, peanuts. Really spicy soup today.Perfect for cold days.
You probably think my food looks damn boring everyday. But honestly, I don't think I can ever get sick of soups, YTF. I don't just eat it for the sake of following a stricter diet, I actually truly enjoy it.

Snack:
3 pieces chocolate
1 golden kiwi

I might end up eating something else later tonight too. Planning to stay up to study. Really much more efficient at night, especially when the whole house is asleep. I get the peace and quiet. I think I prefer studying alone too. Less risk of digressing.
Took a 2 hour nap just now to make up for the lack of sleep last night. 3 hours of sleep, I get headaches. Really not good. I hope that nap is able to sustain me for another 3 hours. Biz law time!

22/9

It's really amazing how fast time is passing now. Just when I need it the most ): Of course, I am not the only one going through this. I think most people who actually give a fuck about their studies will probably be feeling somewhat like me.
I am glad TWC presentation is over. Now's just the report left. I am really happy with how it worked out. Prof said we really set the bar high for the rest of the class, and that our presentation really surpassed his expectations. The best, yes!

Tomorrow's LTB quiz. We've spent all our time at LTB just focusing on our CSP, and now suddenly they are testing us on Leadership and Team Building proper. Like esoteric shit. Nice la. 5 chapters or so. One powerpoint has 80 slides. Nice. Can't imagine reading the textbook when I am assuming the ppt is already summarised. There's only time to read and not to study or memorise anything. Hopefully, my memory, which is supposed to be pretty good based on past experience, doesn't fail me.

Ok, I think you can tell I am pretty pissed off with stuff. It's not been a good day, other than our presentation. I really can't wait for mid term break. After tomorrow's meeting, I am going to take a nap when I get home and hopefully workout in the evening. Then it's studying for 3 other quizzes next week. Biz law, Stats and TWC. I pray I don't fall sick. Staying up so late so often is not healthy! I am already feeling... Shitty. Cold.

Back to studying. TA says go sleep. But how can I? I've never been someone to just give up. I'll stay up another hour. Sleep at 1am, wake up at 6am AGAIN. Sickening. Really.

I need more encouragement!

Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential.