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I heart you =D

Hehe.
Chem sucks.
yay its over (:

Time is my enemy

Time is stealing what's most precious.
CURSE YOU, TIME.

Carlyn,
I think you're the only one interested in reading anything. Haha. But I will remain ambiguous with my words. So no direct updates. Just know that, my life is really eventful now. Hmmm. Yes, it is. (:

I have given up on the AQ. I never knew such an AQ could come up? Or is it just a way to waste our time. I really wonder.

My whole day of watching the Olympics has resulted in no work being done. Other than those 2 hours. But I took a break to watch Phelps win his 8th Gold. Congrats. But you're not as hot as py says you are. -.- Different taste.
And then there was Fencing. Men's Sabre team. I guess France won the USA. I think the gap was too big for the USA to catch up with. So I stopped watching and ate my dinner. Congrats to Italy. 45-44. And to think that the Russian Federation was leading all the way till 44-44. And I know how it feels to be in their shoes. Losing at the very,very, very last minute is a very, very, very SAD thing. Haha. Eh not bad I still remember how to preside. Most of my calls were accurate. Video replays are a smart new thing.

Ok I should sleep now. I gotta wake up at 5 so I won't be late. Haha. Someone's always early.
Goodnight beautiful world (:

everything.

You are the strength that keeps me walking.
You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me, how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in, take me deeper now.

(:

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok



I'm hooked.

Oops! My bad.

I can't recall anything that happened before Wednesday. My memory doesn't go back that far... I think I'm way too tired and achy all over. ):

We had the leadership module this Wednesday. Py and I signed up for the Leadership Challenge, unaware that Cassie, Rebecca, Angela and Shiang Ming also signed up for it. At least we had good company. Ok la. It was alright. Mr Sim was boasting about losing 13kg. The power of will and determination. I really don't know how he managed to do that. But I do remember seeing him gyming on Youth Day. Cherene and I went to the gym to get the keys for the squash courts and we saw him. Not bad eh. At first he was like a machine. When we returned from opening the courts, he slowed down already. Haha. But still, not bad... Ok. We had to make a egg holder out of different materials. Budget: $4. We would be judged firstly on whether the egg broke if we released it from a height of 3m. Also by how economical and aesthetically pleasing it looked. We were given free tissue from the DM cos we were so pitiful sitting on the floor. You know what? I think some guys are really... *shakes head* They should sit on the floor and let the girls sit on the chairs right. Dumb. Oh well. It's not like I expected the guys to be so chivalrous. Every 15min or so, I would get pins and needles. And py would want to smack my leg and make me laugh/cry!
So this was how we constructed our egg holder. We wrapped the egg with the free tissue and used 3 Ziploc bags to surround it. Simple. But it was quite ugly. Cos the scotch tape they provided us with was the cheapo, crappy ones which hardly stick. It was far from aesthetically pleasing. But it worked. The egg didn't break! And our egg holder was named the most effective one. HAHA! With a group like ours, you can't go wrong. =P

Had squash after the leadership module. The DSA candidates were there. It's really nice to watch them play. I love that sound man. The sound of repressed anger! HAHA. Joking. But it's true. Squash is good for venting. Not so for fencing. Cos when fencing, and you're pissed, you tend to do things too rashly without analysing your moves. That's for me I mean. It's only really damn shuang when you score and then you can scream or shout or whatever.
We've noticed some holes in the walls. Wonder who did that...
Bad news from Cherene. ): But there seems to be a solution so let's just pray it works out. She was so angsty. And she kept running. I know it was my suggestion initially but I didn't wanna run so much. My leg is hurting like crap now. But I won't let you run alone!!! So I kept going...to keep you company. I hope you're feeling better now. (: I don't even think you know this blog exists but... Haha. I am talking to myself again.
Training didn't last long so Cherene and I continued playing. Samson joined us for awhile. He sure hits hard man... Scary. We played till 1930 or so. Water never tasted so good. All that running around kills.
Congrats to Faisal, Wenjing and Samson. School team eh. Haha. Not bad.
I think everyone joined the Recreational League. Should be fun.

Thursday was another amusing day. We had listening comprehension after school. We headed over to the sports complex first so py could get her PE attire and so that we could get some peace, away from all the commotion. And that's when it happened. We went to the toilet. And that woman just stripped in the open. She walked into the toilet with her bikini. Next thing I knew, there goes her panties. I didn't need to see that. I ran out, rather disgusted.
LC was easy. It should be a perfect score. I can't believe Chinese is actually my best subject now. Along with econs. B.
The fun came after the paper while at the candeck. Those present should know what happened la. Haha. What a joke. While on the way back too. Something is up? That's my intuition. "Oops. My bad." And as py mentioned on the tagboard about the hairpin. Haha. It was just so darn funny. Kept laughing. Actually...I am sort of over it already la. It was only amusing for that one and a half days.

Played basketball for PE today. I haven't played for 6 months or more? At least I don't remember playing it this year. Oh man... Now I remember why I used to play it almost every day after school.
The guys said that I am a very aggressive player. I don't know whether to take that as a compliment or an insult. Very unladylike is it? The guys always play rough with me too. I kicked De Ming accidentally yesterday during soccer and it's quite badly injured. Cos I still see the mark there. Ouch. Sorry. But I fell on one knee today. I only noticed the abrasions while taking a shower cos it hurt and burned very badly all of a sudden. I don't know which two guys, while attempting to steal the ball from me, pushed me and grabbed my arm along with the ball. I couldn't break free! Haha. But it was a good game. And we won. We high-fived to that. (:

I really wonder why some people would change just to fit in and be one of the "cool" ones. I'm never gonna do that just to be accepted to be one of them. There's nothing wrong with me in the first place. I am perfectly contented with what I see in myself. Py is right. So what if we are "different"? We're different in the all the right ways. What I see in them is the exact opposite of what I wanna be. No. I am not gonna be like them. I will not conform.

Jeremy says The Dark Knight is really good. Obviously...And it's Heath Ledger's final piece of work and aptly so, maybe one of his best. Will I be sad watching it? Maybe. He was just too young, taken away at his peak. Isn't it funny how life plays out? Sigh. I've seen pictures of his loved ones. Little baby Matilda oblivious to her father's death smiling while family mourns. I just feel a little pinch inside. It's just sad. SAD!!! Probably one of the worst things I've heard all year.

Some people are so persistent. Are they just blind? I suppose those words were meant to move me. They failed miserably. It only succeeded in making me that bit angrier about it all. I don't wanna hear anything anymore. Just leave...

Ya ya. Emo kid. I know. Let me have my moment. I'm pissed!

Interact installation tomorrow. Gotta usher. Goodnight.

Say it again, for me.

Today started out like crap. This morning, I had sinus again so I kept sneezing. I asked my maid to warm up some water for me but instead she boiled it. I almost drank the darn thing! Come to think of it, this isn't the first time my maid has almost scalded me. She's done it twice already. Both instances with the hot pan. -.-
So the sneezing continued while in the cab as well. Sicko. Ha. I wanna watch "Sicko".

I've decided to have a healthy day today. And I decided that I have to cleanse my system too.
Breakfast: Yoghurt, muesli bar, one sinful muffin and a waffle, mango milk shake!
Crap. I shouldn't have had that waffle. It made me feel even more sick. Now looking at it, I think I ate a lot. ): But I'm always hungry! Dammit! What if I get fat?!

The first 1h20min of the day was at the NL. And I don't know why it seems that wherever I sit gets the strongest blast from the aircon. To illustrate the magnitude of the blast: My specs on the table actually was moving cos the aircon was so strong. -.- I felt like I was going to die. I've almost never felt this cold before. AND...He doesn't smell too good. Ok. Who am I kidding? He doesn't smell good AT ALL. He smells like an old person. You know, that smell? I think he probably doesn't bathe in the morning. I could never understand how people can not shower before coming to school. Whether you know it or not, everyone perspires at night, there's millions and millions of dust mites on your bed, all the sebum and oil accumulates. At the very least make sure you smell good before you go anywhere away from home. And if you're dirty, please don't touch other people or their stuff! Maybe I'm a bit too particular about this kinda hygiene issues. I always have my baby wipes, tissue paper and Dettol hand sanitiser with me. And I don't have OCD!
By the time we started PE, we were already 20min late. Which is half of the lesson gone. How fun is PE man. I don't understand how people can hate it. Even if it means running for half the period. I really don't mind. So today, we played soccer again. Only girls can score. I scored once today just as Gabriel was coming and he gave me the "WTH" look. Xin Yue was damn funny. She kept passing me the ball though I'm not in her team. Worst thing was that she was the goalkeeper. Haha. Everything was going great till i got kicked in the leg by Cassie. Just like when you just sprain your ankle -you can't move cos it feels like your feet weighs a tonne- I was quite immobile. Slowly, I started limping around. Kicking was beyond my ability then. It hurts! But I shan't be a little girl about it. Fencing was worse. All those bruises on your thighs, arms and chest? I mean, the chest protector protects the sensitive areas but the most painful area is just above the chest protector. It hurts like crap! After every competition, you're bound to have at least one very bad bruise. I will always remember that one event... I got hit straight in the knee while lunging. (That girl's blade is totally off target!) And I couldn't move. So Yuan Zi who was presiding had to massage my knee for awhile. He's a nice guy. And a pro fencer. It's so exciting to watch him fence! Yeah so he massaged my knee for me. I won't forget that match. Cos that injury cost me my win. Final score: 15-14. If I'm not wrong, that win would've confirmed a shared bronze for me.
AH!!! How I miss fencing!

Another sleepy, dreary day rolls by...
Why does physics lesson have to be so freaking boring?!?!?! And I'm wondering why I don't understand. When I am wide awake even, the teacher really can't explain well. Like WTH. C'mon man. Nothing she says registers.

Mr Ho ended lab 40min early today! So was deciding whether I should go for the econs make-up on COP or go for Interact or don't go for both. Of course the latter choice is preferred. But yeah. I gotta be a responsible member of the Interact club. Later, I found out that the econs was gonna be taught by seniors. But I much rather have consultation with Ms Mai. So...INTERACT IT IS! I was still contemplating during physics lesson whether I should gym today. I'm gonna be an usher for the Installation on the 19th. Py and I will be standing at the carpark to usher the VIPs. Then I gotta smile at them. Argh...
Chen Yang commented today that it's the first time she's seen the "Cool Madelene" laugh that hard. I nodded cooly in response. Haha. Haiya. I'm sorry I'm not one of those smiley people. I rather keep to myself. But I do say hi occasionally. What do you want me to do? Smile and walk? It's just weird.

Ok la. But after Chinese I was in quite a good mood. Before lab, we sat at the bleachers and py and I listened to music. And I really felt like singing. And I sang all the way up to the lab. I hope no one heard me. Haha. At the bleachers, I sang "Drowning" and "Guilty". While going up to the lab I was singing "How do I breathe". I laughed a lot. Probably because I can't believe I'm so full of crap la. My behaviour was really mad just now. And it continued before Interact as well. Singing and discussing econs at the void deck. Then something stupid happened. -.- There was a group of people playing truth or dare. I'm quite sure of that. The first was this guy that came to our table and lay down on it. Second was two guys who came behind me... I don't know what the hell they were doing but their friends were video-ing it. The third time, the guy asked py if he could sit between us. And of course she said no. Seriously, some people have nothing better to do. -.- Get a life la. Don't disturb people.

I decided to go for a run today. Yup. Not bad. I was surprised I could still run without stopping. But of course it's slower than usual. 20s slower to be precise. So it's 13:41 today. Whoa great. And that was over 2 hours ago and I've yet to shower. Haha. Goodbye y'all!

How do I breathe without you here by my side?
How will I see when your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me, how do I breathe, how do I breathe?

broken wings

We are in this life together, even when one moves without the other.
Different pages from the same story.
This aching is familiar. It's something I remember.
We can't touch without feeling. Can't heal without healing.
Only the young could fall so hard, could be so careless and ignore the scars.
So we will move out of the way this time, making room for each other, one without the other.
We are broken, but we are moving still.